I was disturbed by an issue since yesterday. I was facinated in a negative way of how some things changed so quickly, how fast the level of passion falls til it's a negative interger. I'm wondering if I'm the one who caused this to end this way. Because honestly speaking, I am very agitated.

Take for instance, writing. Through writing to a particular person, you are in a way "recording" what you want to convey to this person. After some time, when you re-read the whole book again, you see the amount of effort and passion you put into your writing. Then you will notice how things change and how it affects you.

But I never knew, the difference made can be so big and tremendous. It took me a second to think, to recall, to refresh and to accept.

Sometimes I just wish some things just didn't happen. But too bad, partly, I made it happen myself. Because, I didn't know and I didn't listen.

Be like good old friends? I doubt so, why not just leave it there and let it perish. You don't care, I don't give a fuck anymore, so why touch it?

When you say something, do it.

I remembered this picture was taken at lucky plaza, Mr.roti prata. I was having lunch break with Eriana and I even paid for this meal. We even ta bao back sliced fish soup and sushi back to store because Kamal gave us money to buy dinner for the staffs. But we took advantage of it. Kamal almost kill me when I asked for more cash. LOL.

This was when I found out Rui Heng was working for AX Paragon. Met him at the smoking area, tgt with Loewe. Another supper khaki to chill out with. I cut bangs and dyed my hair red. It was after work, we changed and hangout. =)

I was doing the stocks in shop after working hours and it was my birthday eve. I turned 18 and officially able to buy ciggies from 7-11 Paragon. That old bitch who works there always catch me and tell me - "SORRY YOU ARE NOT 18 YET".

Spent my eve and past 12 in the shop. Kamal bought tiramisu cake from Bakerzine and celebrated for me. 3 guys sang happy birthday song for me, I feel damn shiok. Because they look me in the eyes. HAHAHA.

And today, it's my bestest friend's birthday.

LESLIE LIM,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

And always remember, you're my bestest friend ever. I will always be here for you. Thank you for taking care of me een though I'm older than you by 5 months. Happy 19th.

Ps. Time flies

rose