xoxo, rosette

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

I know ure not like that and i strongly believe that ure not like that.

My night ended with a confused mind. I don't know what u mean by giving me that #1 rule. maybe u wan me to learn, or ure just giving me false hope? tell me.

i wanna make u stay not cuz` of that. its cuz u completely entered my life. you play an impt part. do u know? ure always been my motivation.

my childish acts, being dominant, throwing ur ego and pride, making u giving in have build up ur anger towards me. yet u stayed silent and pretend nth happened.

now i realise the real meaning of the song u sang to me.
now i realise why u expect me to apologize.
now i realise how much u meant to me.
now i realise...how much the cigarettes meant to u.

telling me not having high hopes is not gonna work.
if u dun care, y would u even bother to check im at roomfuls?
if u dun care, y would u bother to msg me not to harm myself?
if u dun care,y bother to tell me not having high hopes being tgt agn?
maybe i shouldnt be that positive and its not that i didnt think abt the negatives.
i know u didnt change at all. i know and i understand how u feel. i regretted.
i'll let love leads the way.

i do not know how to make u stay and what should i do to make u stay. i just wanna stay but ur side giving u all the care and concerns u need, that u've lost during the past. go ahead and set all the rules and i'll learn how to adapt to it. give me time and i'll change, and hopefully ure back to who u r, the clint i've always taken granted for.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Sadly, this is the end of our love. We broke off.

I don't expect this to happen, cuz` I can still feel his love for me.

I'm so lost without you.

But learning to step forward is what you've taught me.

Lately, I'm basked with agony.

Desmond deleted our pictures.

I was so heartbroken, I cried.

My mind is occupied by you you you and you.

I won't harm myself, I promise.

I'll be waiting, for u.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

alcohol and cigarettes sucks to the core because it snatch away people's loved ones in a fuck-up and hurting manner.

soaked in anger.

EXTREMELY UNHAPPY NIGHT.

I hope you like the video. Though it's kinda simple and short, though final destination 3 sound more exciting than my video, I hope u appreciate.

Love,
Rosette.

Monday, March 12, 2007

thank you for listening to my sorrows and cries.
thank you for keeping quiet while im vending out my anger at you today.

the sun won't shine if im living without you.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Everything's alright now...

I'm so happy.

Friday, March 09, 2007

Can somebody just come up to me and say " everything's gonna be alright...".

soaking myself in agony.

hungry for your love.

Today there's no chinese period. Everybody was happy.

Everyone went to the school atrium and mr lee was informed. We went to the school library. I'm not feeling too well, physically and mentally. I know i am strong enough to keep myself going...

I dun wanna study my poa, it's a disaster.

I went to the last shelf of books, sitting of the narrow space. Nobody's disturbing me, its so peaceful.

Chicken soup for the soul, maybe i should read it.

As i read, there were a lot of touching stories. I really respect them. Since they can pull it thru, y cant i? I know it works.

I came across this phrase and realise my grave mistake: If you try to dominate people, ure already defeated.

I was already wrong in the initial stage, but i did not realise.

I had a bad day in school.
Tears cant stop flowing whenever someone ask me- are u okay?

Decided to visit him, though time off. I dont know what to do. I was thinking...will my presence disturb him?

He shld be slping...parents working...no food? ok...buy him lunch then. Oh! dont forget abt the drink. his fav. peel fresh orange juice. I ran to his house.

Hmm...parents ard and air-con on. smth's wrong.

En's ard and i shouldnt be here...right?

I walked away.

I ask him to leave me alone cuz he's the one who initaited it.

He left.

He called.

We hung the call.

And im back here, scolding myself.

I thought i was strong enough, but i was wrong.
I broke down, crying like a crazy bitch.

Thursday, March 08, 2007

I need you. Don't take too long.

Love,
Rosette.