I want to stare into your eyes and never look away; I want you to hold me in your arms and tell me it's okay; I want to kiss with a passion that only we can share, and when it all falls down I want you to be there...
Time is running short.
I've always looking forward to meet you up.However, it's either i'm busy or you're sailing.So I have to grab every chance and time to meet up with you.Even though we only meet up 1 or 2 days a week,but is actually more than enough.It is already very sweet of you to take out some time from your bust schedule to spend some time with me.Well...a couple of hours count.It is the quantity.Although we often have some silence in the conversation,staring into your pair of eyes is good enough.
It will be a lie if I tell you i'm not missing you,thinking about you or not meeting you.Sometimes we just have to give each other some space to breath...
Meet you up this evening.You insisted meeting me up today.Lucky I've done my survey fast enough, or I won't be meeting up up at all.So I rushed home and did not wait for the rest of my friends.Well...they knew where i'm going.After showering,take my file and went up to uncle roger's house to ask about my work.Waiting for you call...eager to hear your voice.
Just then I finish everything and you called.Walked down the road and saw you,again,wearing a white top.And we started walking around blocks to find a good seat.Finally,we found one.Sitting down,chatting and sharing.How nice...
Kinda sad when you informed me you have way lots of sailing to go.If I can't meet you up days later,I think I can only see you during mid april.One thing,missin`u.
A few hugs,a few kisses,a couple of sweet talks,and time pass really quickly within a blue flash.
Walking down along the road with your hands holding mine,and we kiss goodbye...
Time is short :(
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
the new chapter of my life
Sunday, March 26, 2006
baby...lovin`u.
I know that you are not perfect and nor can I claim to be either, but please believe me, when I say that I want to be by your side, to hold your hand, to treasure you in the morning and in the noon-tide, to be next to you, to be held close to your heart now and for the rest of my living years, to comfort you, dry your tears and calm your most frightening fears, to fight your battles and show no shame to scream my love for you out loud all over the land...
Everything just happened in seconds.Never will I believe I'm still standing beside you with my hand holding yours.I couldn't believe that you put so much trust in me after "that" thing happened.At that point of time,I felt intensely gulity.I did not know how to express how I feel to you and to give you a vaild and reasonable reason,or at least one, to let you know how much I love you.I kept wondering if it actually hurted you.You didn't convey to me how you feel at that moment.It actually made me felt that you are furious,hurt,jaded.You remained silent and the conversation remained in silence.I was chicken-out.But the only I can say is "I'm sorry".
You even said"Aye...still crying?Wipe off your tears...".
That was the worst thing.This have make me feel I did something terribly wrong.
However,you still make me smile.
How could this ever be?
Slowly,gently and quietly you sneak behind my back,with your hands around my waist and your head close to my face.Showering me with love,concerns and warmth into my life.As your lips touched mine,and hands holding yours,your body close to mine.
I miss you,every single day.
I love you,til our hearts uncombine as one.
Occupying my life...
Friday, March 24, 2006
i discovered...
my mulitmedia folder,
is occupied by our lovely pictures.
my message inbox,
is filled with your sweet messges.
my calling list,
is packed with your numbers.
my messeger history,
have your longest chats.
my time,
have been taken away from you.
my mind,
where you always appear.
my heart,
you have reach that important seat.
my soul,
which you have slowly gain it from me.
that is when i start realising you have occupied my life.when my phone is ringing,i look forward to see your name appearing on the screen.when im online,i looked upon if you are online.i love your goodnight messges.i hate it when you are off sailing for a long time,BUT i will be understanding.there's time to be together, there's time to get serperated.or u will get sick of me!
lun&xin.
my mulitmedia folder,
is occupied by our lovely pictures.
my message inbox,
is filled with your sweet messges.
my calling list,
is packed with your numbers.
my messeger history,
have your longest chats.
my time,
have been taken away from you.
my mind,
where you always appear.
my heart,
you have reach that important seat.
my soul,
which you have slowly gain it from me.
that is when i start realising you have occupied my life.when my phone is ringing,i look forward to see your name appearing on the screen.when im online,i looked upon if you are online.i love your goodnight messges.i hate it when you are off sailing for a long time,BUT i will be understanding.there's time to be together, there's time to get serperated.or u will get sick of me!
lun&xin.
are you serious?
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
honestly speaking...are u serious?
one question that is often asked by people.back to the last 2 nights,i've asked this question.wanted to ask,but dare not ask.keep beating around the bushes.i just wanna run straigh to the wall and bang my head against it.is that very silly asking that question?but i really need an answer.i do not have time to waste. :/
actually wanted to ask earlier on,but i dragged it until now.how stupid...
however, at least i got an answer. :) when come to think about it,i hesitated.is this a sign of...confusion?im going insane soon!even though i have my answer,im still not at ease.he is as free as a birdie, and im like a...jailbird? hmph...
can people from 2 totally different world combine as one?who will be the one who is getting into one's world?or we stay out of each other's affair cuz' we still don't understand each other well?there's still a lot of question running through my mind.i just want to make the right choice for myself. :)
he is always wanting me guess what he wants.he dont tell me his affairs...always keeping it to himself.but sometimes i really wish to dig it out from his heart so that he wont be sighing from the beginning of the conversation til the til of it.i want him to be a better man :) to think about his own future...what he wants...what he intend to do...what he really needs...what he needs to reflect on...and to realise how many mistakes he have actually made to might ruin his life.i might not be the most important person in his life, or the person who changed his life when i start stepping into his life.but im will be really please and more than willing to lend him a listening ear and of course a reminder that there's a lot of people who concern and worried about him every single day.
i just wanna say...
please take care of urself, Lun.
one question that is often asked by people.back to the last 2 nights,i've asked this question.wanted to ask,but dare not ask.keep beating around the bushes.i just wanna run straigh to the wall and bang my head against it.is that very silly asking that question?but i really need an answer.i do not have time to waste. :/
actually wanted to ask earlier on,but i dragged it until now.how stupid...
however, at least i got an answer. :) when come to think about it,i hesitated.is this a sign of...confusion?im going insane soon!even though i have my answer,im still not at ease.he is as free as a birdie, and im like a...jailbird? hmph...
can people from 2 totally different world combine as one?who will be the one who is getting into one's world?or we stay out of each other's affair cuz' we still don't understand each other well?there's still a lot of question running through my mind.i just want to make the right choice for myself. :)
he is always wanting me guess what he wants.he dont tell me his affairs...always keeping it to himself.but sometimes i really wish to dig it out from his heart so that he wont be sighing from the beginning of the conversation til the til of it.i want him to be a better man :) to think about his own future...what he wants...what he intend to do...what he really needs...what he needs to reflect on...and to realise how many mistakes he have actually made to might ruin his life.i might not be the most important person in his life, or the person who changed his life when i start stepping into his life.but im will be really please and more than willing to lend him a listening ear and of course a reminder that there's a lot of people who concern and worried about him every single day.
i just wanna say...
please take care of urself, Lun.
Imagining you here by my side...
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Oh baby! So hard for me to survive without you these few days.Nahh...not that i feel insecure, just not that used to be yet. Ure away for so long!! The worst thing is that there's no messages and calls anymore. :(
Sometimes there's really a need to seperate.you can actually still feel the chemistry between their loved ones.How nice...one message...i mean one message that is fillled with love will definitely let you forget your worries.
Guess we gonna have a lot of things to talk about.Sharing of moments with each other can be a very nice thing.so im looking forward to it! guess there's only limited time cuz' he have to go back to where he belong.LOL...ya..sadly. :(
Anyway...miss you baby! muack... :D
sailing...
Sunday, March 12, 2006
how how how? he's sailing off for one whole week! :( very sad
actually i was very devastated when i was informed.Well...better to say and nothing better to say. I have to be understanding rite? so what can i do?
Hmmm...guess i gonna miss him til im dead man!Thought im able to meet him during march holidays cuz i have a lot of time to spend.Been looking forward to the holiday but now not alr.For a week...guess it will be a boring week.No talking on phone, no msn,no meeting, just plain imagining.
Oh god!miss u Lun.
actually i was very devastated when i was informed.Well...better to say and nothing better to say. I have to be understanding rite? so what can i do?
Hmmm...guess i gonna miss him til im dead man!Thought im able to meet him during march holidays cuz i have a lot of time to spend.Been looking forward to the holiday but now not alr.For a week...guess it will be a boring week.No talking on phone, no msn,no meeting, just plain imagining.
Oh god!miss u Lun.
one happy day
Wednesday, March 08, 2006
I tot it will be a completely tiring and fuck-up day for me.However, it wasn't that bad afterall!
This morning, 0730am.
i was day-dreaming, sitting in the middle of the parade square with all the crazy people around me.Im so jaded. just when im losing myself soon, a little lady came and approached me with my classmate, Era." xinmei xinmei! you won the speakers' corner stuff!!" i looked up and still not awake from my dream. era's voice drew everyone's attention. "u won!" shouted agn. "huh?" i said. everyone was getting impatient of how slow and lag my mind was this morning. then there was a short silent when everyone was looking at me. "oh...i won?" "yes!!!" everyone respond to my silly question. i was like..UNBELIEVABLE. i went to the side of the platform,awaiting for the kid to announce my name. how real...so i got it.. I GOT IT!!!!!!
Mid-morning, 1015am.
social studies period.my heart was racing. time to get my test paper. how nice...really cool man.Before the period starts, my classmates actually killed a innocent cockrach.how sad this can ever be...it really spoil my mood at that point of time. how innocent. and so and so and so my darling miss tan didn't come to school today. but the paper will be return to us. " XINMEI!" here...im coming!
OMG! IM ONE OF THE FEW PATHETIC PASSERS! HOW REAL...ha! so my efforts DID NOT went down into that dirty smelly drain. haa!
to be continued
This morning, 0730am.
i was day-dreaming, sitting in the middle of the parade square with all the crazy people around me.Im so jaded. just when im losing myself soon, a little lady came and approached me with my classmate, Era." xinmei xinmei! you won the speakers' corner stuff!!" i looked up and still not awake from my dream. era's voice drew everyone's attention. "u won!" shouted agn. "huh?" i said. everyone was getting impatient of how slow and lag my mind was this morning. then there was a short silent when everyone was looking at me. "oh...i won?" "yes!!!" everyone respond to my silly question. i was like..UNBELIEVABLE. i went to the side of the platform,awaiting for the kid to announce my name. how real...so i got it.. I GOT IT!!!!!!
Mid-morning, 1015am.
social studies period.my heart was racing. time to get my test paper. how nice...really cool man.Before the period starts, my classmates actually killed a innocent cockrach.how sad this can ever be...it really spoil my mood at that point of time. how innocent. and so and so and so my darling miss tan didn't come to school today. but the paper will be return to us. " XINMEI!" here...im coming!
OMG! IM ONE OF THE FEW PATHETIC PASSERS! HOW REAL...ha! so my efforts DID NOT went down into that dirty smelly drain. haa!
to be continued
