I don't know how to put it man. Gosh...
It's 2.25a.m and I just don't wanna go to bed. I am thinking of tomorrow.
What am I going to do tmr?
I can't take it any longer. I feel like stabbing myself with something, seriously.
Am I hurting people? I don't get it. I just...
I don't know how to put it. I feel that I am losing something. I am losing grip of the things I already know. I feel I am not performing well and not striving.
Bro's back.
rose
I felt really odd...
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Slack and eat
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Eat eat eat.
Who don't like to eat?
Who don't love food?
Yes, my mum has been constantly reminding me that I am fat and she just can't stop calling me a "AH BUI".
She's lovin' it.
Today, she was asking me why my face was so red today. And I told her, I'm on drugs.
She pinch my boobs.
Fuck. She's abusing and violating me at the same time. I think my dog looks cute today. My boyfriend is working today. Wee~ Can see his monyet face. He slim down a lot and I think he looks better this way. Less chubby less fat more define. But still got MIMI.
MIMI = FAT TUMMY OF HIS
I am like at the front desk eating one of the chef's offered dish.
Thai mango salad. I wonder how's my breathe is like now but I don't really care.
I wanna stink of stinky members.
MUAHAHAHAHAAAA.
Oh. And he's offering me Thai red ruby for dessert. It's not too bad working here when I came to think about it....
rose
Who don't like to eat?
Who don't love food?
Yes, my mum has been constantly reminding me that I am fat and she just can't stop calling me a "AH BUI".
She's lovin' it.
Today, she was asking me why my face was so red today. And I told her, I'm on drugs.
She pinch my boobs.
Fuck. She's abusing and violating me at the same time. I think my dog looks cute today. My boyfriend is working today. Wee~ Can see his monyet face. He slim down a lot and I think he looks better this way. Less chubby less fat more define. But still got MIMI.
MIMI = FAT TUMMY OF HIS
I am like at the front desk eating one of the chef's offered dish.
Thai mango salad. I wonder how's my breathe is like now but I don't really care.
I wanna stink of stinky members.
MUAHAHAHAHAAAA.
Oh. And he's offering me Thai red ruby for dessert. It's not too bad working here when I came to think about it....
rose
Get well soon.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Merry Christmas.
Can you imagine I fell sick on Christmas eve and christmas?
I feel like totally shitty can!
Such a joyous occasion, I spend my time poping pills, talking to my dog and sleeping.
I was suppose to have hotpot with Bff but I cancelled it.
I AM SO SORRY.
It's so sad.
Nobody's home.
Me and munchie.
Boyfriend was also sick. I almost felt both of us are trying so hard to fight with our fever to see each other. 3 days not seeing him already.
I was suppose to meet him up today. I am so afraid that he might fell sick halfway. I just wanna spend quality time with him. I want him to feel good.
I just wanna spend a good new year's eve with him.
I went to town tdy. I bought myself new stuff afterrrrrrrr so long!
I bought a new perfume.
FCUK for Her.
A new high waisted belt.
A new top from Mango.
I wanted to buy more, but I just have to remain calm when comes to shopping. I don't wanna overspend. To compensate for my eve and christmas then!
HAPPY!
=)
p.p.p.p.p.p.p.p.p.p.p.p.p.s : I miss you.
rose
Can you imagine I fell sick on Christmas eve and christmas?
I feel like totally shitty can!
Such a joyous occasion, I spend my time poping pills, talking to my dog and sleeping.
I was suppose to have hotpot with Bff but I cancelled it.
I AM SO SORRY.
It's so sad.
Nobody's home.
Me and munchie.
Boyfriend was also sick. I almost felt both of us are trying so hard to fight with our fever to see each other. 3 days not seeing him already.
I was suppose to meet him up today. I am so afraid that he might fell sick halfway. I just wanna spend quality time with him. I want him to feel good.
I just wanna spend a good new year's eve with him.
I went to town tdy. I bought myself new stuff afterrrrrrrr so long!
I bought a new perfume.
FCUK for Her.
A new high waisted belt.
A new top from Mango.
I wanted to buy more, but I just have to remain calm when comes to shopping. I don't wanna overspend. To compensate for my eve and christmas then!
HAPPY!
=)
p.p.p.p.p.p.p.p.p.p.p.p.p.s : I miss you.
rose
I am a paranoid
Friday, December 19, 2008
What time is it?
Shit, it's late.
But i',m having my holidays now!
Holidays...makes me feel more empty. Nothing much to catch up thou. I feel like a piece of expired can of pineapples, hoping to get sold to a retard. I am rotting.
I feel different now. I don't know how to describe the difference I am refering to. I just need to have somebody to comfort me all the time. Ever since I was given a chance to be somebody.
Awww, FUCK!
I don't know. I just feel like shit now lah..
rose
Shit, it's late.
But i',m having my holidays now!
Holidays...makes me feel more empty. Nothing much to catch up thou. I feel like a piece of expired can of pineapples, hoping to get sold to a retard. I am rotting.
I feel different now. I don't know how to describe the difference I am refering to. I just need to have somebody to comfort me all the time. Ever since I was given a chance to be somebody.
Awww, FUCK!
I don't know. I just feel like shit now lah..
rose
Excited-ness
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
So many things are running through my mind right now.
My holidays started.
Oh my god, I don't know if I am able to enjoy it because I am waiting for the verdict. As long as I am not given an answer from them, I just couldn't able to live my life with that but of anxious-ness in me. Seriously.
But, at the same time, trying to chill my ass off and do whatever I like. It includes looking for a new job. I am totally sick of the front desk work and it is NOT rosette okay. Come on, what was I thinking man?
I am trying to meet up with my Sem 1 classmates, outing with Sem 2 classmates and catching up with my secondary schoolmates and updating my BFF. But my priority is always my very own boyfriend.
I took this chance to meet up with Dawn. =)
Great day spent with her. We went to Ikea, Courts and Pasir Ris and updated each other about the happenings while we did not contact.
I love you girl.
Next...,
Exercise.
I've been telling myself to slim down and get back to my normal weight. I did slim down by 1KG and still trying hard. I really need to swim. I prefer swimming lah. If not, jogging is a killer to me man.
Boyfriend, can don't jog? =D
And...,
Back to Roger's.
I told myself to get an A for my next Science UT test, NO MATTER WHAT.
I want to save my own ass. For whatever mistake I've made, there is no reason why I am still pondering over my regrets.
Roger, help me!
And also,
Die lor. Wendy asked me go back school to revise all my VB codes. Nb. Why am I so dumb?
Yah Kamal, liked I said,
I don't fucking know okay!
I found out...
Drinking with my boyfriend is the best thing that ever happened to me. HURHUR.
Omg, so shy. =D
I am so fucking shag now. A whole day walking, talking,eating, kissing, hugging, touching...,
I will never get enough.
FUCK!
I need my fucking money lah.
What would you do IF somebody just took something important away from you WITHOUT your permission and ASSUME about what you said and elaborated out of ASSUMPTIONS to somebody else?
That's the fuck up part.
HELLO? IF YOU DON'T KNOW, SHUT THE FUCK UP.
Don't understand?
MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS
Please, sometimes when things are not clear, and you have no idea what is happening, I would really appreciate if you allow me to settle my own issues.
Why?
YOU NEARLY KILL MY FINANCE SOURCE FOR THIS WEEK.
So,
just get away from my sight. The more I see you, the more I wanna shot you on you left breast 6 times if I have a gun on my hands.
p.s I had a crazy sunday night that I will never forget.
p.p.s i love you bbeh
rose
My holidays started.
Oh my god, I don't know if I am able to enjoy it because I am waiting for the verdict. As long as I am not given an answer from them, I just couldn't able to live my life with that but of anxious-ness in me. Seriously.
But, at the same time, trying to chill my ass off and do whatever I like. It includes looking for a new job. I am totally sick of the front desk work and it is NOT rosette okay. Come on, what was I thinking man?
I am trying to meet up with my Sem 1 classmates, outing with Sem 2 classmates and catching up with my secondary schoolmates and updating my BFF. But my priority is always my very own boyfriend.
I took this chance to meet up with Dawn. =)
Great day spent with her. We went to Ikea, Courts and Pasir Ris and updated each other about the happenings while we did not contact.
I love you girl.
Next...,
Exercise.
I've been telling myself to slim down and get back to my normal weight. I did slim down by 1KG and still trying hard. I really need to swim. I prefer swimming lah. If not, jogging is a killer to me man.
Boyfriend, can don't jog? =D
And...,
Back to Roger's.
I told myself to get an A for my next Science UT test, NO MATTER WHAT.
I want to save my own ass. For whatever mistake I've made, there is no reason why I am still pondering over my regrets.
Roger, help me!
And also,
Die lor. Wendy asked me go back school to revise all my VB codes. Nb. Why am I so dumb?
Yah Kamal, liked I said,
I don't fucking know okay!
I found out...
Drinking with my boyfriend is the best thing that ever happened to me. HURHUR.
Omg, so shy. =D
I am so fucking shag now. A whole day walking, talking,eating, kissing, hugging, touching...,
I will never get enough.
FUCK!
I need my fucking money lah.
What would you do IF somebody just took something important away from you WITHOUT your permission and ASSUME about what you said and elaborated out of ASSUMPTIONS to somebody else?
That's the fuck up part.
HELLO? IF YOU DON'T KNOW, SHUT THE FUCK UP.
Don't understand?
MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS
Please, sometimes when things are not clear, and you have no idea what is happening, I would really appreciate if you allow me to settle my own issues.
Why?
YOU NEARLY KILL MY FINANCE SOURCE FOR THIS WEEK.
So,
just get away from my sight. The more I see you, the more I wanna shot you on you left breast 6 times if I have a gun on my hands.
p.s I had a crazy sunday night that I will never forget.
p.p.s i love you bbeh
rose
Simple meals that rock my day
Friday, December 12, 2008
Huhu.
Hi people.
Tdy's class ended really early. Thanks to Zai man...Class presentation instead.
You go girl!
My boyfriend made me lunch and bought to school. No wonder he is in such a rush to ask me to rush to te library before he go off for his FYP. Aww beh, you're the sweetest.
<3
Simple meals that touch my heart.
Yesterday, Zai and I went for lunch tgt. Passed by sweet tooth, so, ice cream? =D
Sexy? I think Zai is sexay!
We order 5 scoops and squeezed it into a cup.
Hi people.
Tdy's class ended really early. Thanks to Zai man...Class presentation instead.
You go girl!
My boyfriend made me lunch and bought to school. No wonder he is in such a rush to ask me to rush to te library before he go off for his FYP. Aww beh, you're the sweetest.
<3
Simple meals that touch my heart.
Yesterday, Zai and I went for lunch tgt. Passed by sweet tooth, so, ice cream? =D
Sexy? I think Zai is sexay!
I'm like some China pig trying to suck the whole scoop of ice cream in my mouth lah.
And it's like my expression shows that the ice cream taste sour lor.
And Zai is absolutely enjoying doing that.
We order 5 scoops and squeezed it into a cup.
Choco, Choco chip, Vanilla, Cookies an cream and Choco peppermint.
I still remember that I need to go for a diet.
Praying mantis.
I still remember that I need to go for a diet.
Praying mantis.
Male genital area.
Dragonfly.
What else?
p.s: Zai, take the pics from here.
p.p.s: BEH OMG YOU FUCKIN SWEET. I WANNA LICK YOU LIKE A LOLIPOP.
p.p.p.s : holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
rose
I can only hear the rain drops falling upon the ground
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Why, in the middle of 6p?
Once again, to the very farmilar building.
Where everything seems to be the same old scene.
Now,I am totally aware of what is happening.
I move my feets without a doubt,
back into the emptiness.
I was alone.
But I know,
Boyfriend is with me.
BFF is with me.
Roger is with me.
Zai is with me.
I can only hear the rain drops falling off upon the ground
Drop...by drop.
I don't know where to place my hand.
I don't know how to place my pair of legs.
I don't know how to stop myself from rubbing my tips of fingers against each other.
He talked to me.
He asked me what module do I like.
Communications.
Cognitive processes.
After my confessions,
he told me,
" If you like Cognitive, maybe you might also like Science. Just put in a liiiiiiitle bit more effort. Just a little bit. =) "
I guess so. It was until Uncle Roger taught me science that night, I realise how easy the UT3 was. I couldn't find anymore excuses not to call myself a dumbo.
And,
I miss my meeting for my Europe backpacking. =(
I forgot about it.
How sad.
I've replied.
I've given my mobile number.
All I can do is to wait, wait and wait for all 3 results during the holidays I guess.
rose
Once again, to the very farmilar building.
Where everything seems to be the same old scene.
Now,I am totally aware of what is happening.
I move my feets without a doubt,
back into the emptiness.
I was alone.
But I know,
Boyfriend is with me.
BFF is with me.
Roger is with me.
Zai is with me.
I can only hear the rain drops falling off upon the ground
Drop...by drop.
I don't know where to place my hand.
I don't know how to place my pair of legs.
I don't know how to stop myself from rubbing my tips of fingers against each other.
He talked to me.
He asked me what module do I like.
Communications.
Cognitive processes.
After my confessions,
he told me,
" If you like Cognitive, maybe you might also like Science. Just put in a liiiiiiitle bit more effort. Just a little bit. =) "
I guess so. It was until Uncle Roger taught me science that night, I realise how easy the UT3 was. I couldn't find anymore excuses not to call myself a dumbo.
And,
I miss my meeting for my Europe backpacking. =(
I forgot about it.
How sad.
I've replied.
I've given my mobile number.
All I can do is to wait, wait and wait for all 3 results during the holidays I guess.
rose
Freedom is beautiful
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
I have been having bad issues lately, and was in terrible terrible deep shit. If I were to tell this to Kamal, he will probably kill me without allowing me to explain anything. So I guess, I should not disclose this issue to him.
Thank you boyfriend to be by my side no matter what.
Bad things aside.
I received an email this morning that I have been short-listed to YOG advanture in Europe. Selected students will be able to travel around Europe. It is a backpacking experience in 5 places. It includes Paris, France, Rome, and I forgot the rest.
Happy.
So, I'm going to have my final interview tmr at 12.15 at the South agora Student's lounge. I'm not hoping too much. I told my parents earlier, but, they do not show any support.
Boyfriend sounds a bit sad too.
I was talking to my mum and was telling her how excited I was. But was terribly being discouraged.
I just want to take this once-in-a-lifetime experience and go ahead, create something that I will always remember. I know very clearly myself, that I might not be able to afford to go to this places.
It's not very nice to spend your parents' saving.
I need to work very very very hard in future and save up so that I can go.
And since, I am given a chance, why not?
I was wondering what is wrong. I do not understand, but I certainly understand how it feels like to worry and to miss a person. But, it's my life, and I want it...very very much. If they could give me their support, I wonder, who I will be today.
Rosette?
I don't know.
Freedom is still a debate.
For good or bad,
it's one's view.
But for my very own adventure and life experience,
freedom is beautiful.
rose
Thank you boyfriend to be by my side no matter what.
Bad things aside.
I received an email this morning that I have been short-listed to YOG advanture in Europe. Selected students will be able to travel around Europe. It is a backpacking experience in 5 places. It includes Paris, France, Rome, and I forgot the rest.
Happy.
So, I'm going to have my final interview tmr at 12.15 at the South agora Student's lounge. I'm not hoping too much. I told my parents earlier, but, they do not show any support.
Boyfriend sounds a bit sad too.
I was talking to my mum and was telling her how excited I was. But was terribly being discouraged.
I just want to take this once-in-a-lifetime experience and go ahead, create something that I will always remember. I know very clearly myself, that I might not be able to afford to go to this places.
It's not very nice to spend your parents' saving.
I need to work very very very hard in future and save up so that I can go.
And since, I am given a chance, why not?
I was wondering what is wrong. I do not understand, but I certainly understand how it feels like to worry and to miss a person. But, it's my life, and I want it...very very much. If they could give me their support, I wonder, who I will be today.
Rosette?
I don't know.
Freedom is still a debate.
For good or bad,
it's one's view.
But for my very own adventure and life experience,
freedom is beautiful.
rose
失去理智
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
我不知道我。。。
我不知道我在想。。。
我想。。。
我快要失去理智
有时心里会有点烦
不知所措
心痛
心痛
心痛
我怕有一天
事情就变得不一样了
那。。。
我想。。。
那天又是我要学会独立的时候了。
我不希望那一天的到来
因为我害怕，
害怕受到挫折
而又生生的受到伤害。
如果一切在重来，
他会比较好一点吗？
我不知道我在想。。。
我想。。。
我快要失去理智
有时心里会有点烦
不知所措
心痛
心痛
心痛
我怕有一天
事情就变得不一样了
那。。。
我想。。。
那天又是我要学会独立的时候了。
我不希望那一天的到来
因为我害怕，
害怕受到挫折
而又生生的受到伤害。
如果一切在重来，
他会比较好一点吗？
Hari Raya Haji
Good day. I work on a public holiday without double pay. Fuck.
See, I'm so free that I used the movie text to create my favourite name!
Rosette Rocko Rockstar.
And even, I drew lor.
Again, my favourite name.
Rocko rocko rocko muah.
Ben and jerry's at Vivio. Chunky monkey!
Chunky Monkey for my MONYET!!
When I was young, I always thought the crane looks like a...
See, I'm so free that I used the movie text to create my favourite name!
Rosette Rocko Rockstar.
And even, I drew lor.Again, my favourite name.
Rocko rocko rocko muah.
Ben and jerry's at Vivio. Chunky monkey!
Chunky Monkey for my MONYET!!
See, look like one right?
Him in the green jumgle of his with his power of nature to love me.
When I was young, I always thought the crane looks like a...
heehee.
p.s Ut starting soon
p.s Ut starting soon
p.p.s Zai, enjoy ur hook up
p.p.p.s i miss you bbeh.
rose
I miss retail life.
Friday, December 05, 2008
Raoul fitting room.
Eat snake cannot ah.
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My dog plays football since young too beh.
Ah paul cut this hair for me.
Roomful not opened that night. TCC instead. The margarita sucks balls like fuck!
Raffles Marina.
Is this the same picture?
Yacht club.
All these are being retrieved from my previous phone memory card. Looking back... woo!
Eat snake cannot ah.
Sexy?
Sec 5, coming to the end of my secondary school days.
And that's not my bag okie.
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My dog plays football since young too beh.
Ah paul cut this hair for me.
Looking back,
looks slutty.
Roomful not opened that night. TCC instead. The margarita sucks balls like fuck!
Last last years.
So long ago.
Raffles Marina.
Look how skinny I am.
53KG.
I look like I only have lean meat lor.
Is this the same picture?
Yacht club.
All these are being retrieved from my previous phone memory card. Looking back... woo!
Morning madness.
I'm like learning the doppler effects in today's Basic science.
Omg, science is so boring and it's killing me.
It makes me hate science more.
Oh! I'm feeling so tired now.
Roarrr. Yawns..
And ya...
Beh, thank you.
I'll take it as a surprise for this morning.
I mean,
It's a huge huge surprise lor.
P/s : I love you.
rose
Omg, science is so boring and it's killing me.
It makes me hate science more.
Oh! I'm feeling so tired now.
Roarrr. Yawns..
And ya...
Beh, thank you.
I'll take it as a surprise for this morning.
I mean,
It's a huge huge surprise lor.
P/s : I love you.
rose
真心话
Thursday, December 04, 2008
心很痛。
心。。。真的很痛。
此话说所谓：
痛到最痛，就不痛了。
但是他能体会到
我心痛的原因吗？
还是，
他还在茫茫的大海洋中，
徘徊在他的过去？
或者。。。
他的介意，
使到他不敢相信
我会是这样？
我的过去，
在我的脑海中，
慢慢的为他，
而变了。
你说，
我不明白。
可能，
我真的不明白吧。
心。。。真的很痛。
此话说所谓：
痛到最痛，就不痛了。
但是他能体会到
我心痛的原因吗？
还是，
他还在茫茫的大海洋中，
徘徊在他的过去？
或者。。。
他的介意，
使到他不敢相信
我会是这样？
我的过去，
在我的脑海中，
慢慢的为他，
而变了。
你说，
我不明白。
可能，
我真的不明白吧。
I need to write.
My anxiety is killing me.
Thanks Zai.
I woke up at 3am.
Nervous.
I was suppose to meet Zai at 7am.
But I woke up at that time.
I'm so so so sorry.
=(
My UT sucks.
I don't know a single question.
Feels like shit.
I'm feeling...
back to the past.
p.s : I love you.
Thanks Zai.
I woke up at 3am.
Nervous.
I was suppose to meet Zai at 7am.
But I woke up at that time.
I'm so so so sorry.
=(
My UT sucks.
I don't know a single question.
Feels like shit.
I'm feeling...
back to the past.
p.s : I love you.
BANANA BANANA BANANA
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO W34Q SINDY TAN!!
Yah lah, see we're so nice.
We bought a chocolate BANANA cake for Sindy Tan lor.
It's damn good.
Yummy.
Monyet like me love it.
Look at her evil smile. Hana hana Happy birthday.
Aw. She cried.
Zai go hug her.
Sindy doesn't seems to want her hug.
LOL.
-KIDDING OKAY
WOI BIRTHDAY GIRL
THE BANANA CAKE
Alright. Put the bdae celebration aside. Here are some snapshots taken my Marcus lappy. It was quite some time ago already, when Zai and I got our red extention in school.
See my sexy pose.
I know what you did last summer.
Similarities.
Halved.
Professor Marcus and his gang.
Brain dropped behind the eyes.
I don't know what the fuck are we doing in this picture.
I look like pig.
Boobies.
I don't know how to describe this picture.
Yah lah, see we're so nice.
We bought a chocolate BANANA cake for Sindy Tan lor.
It's damn good.
Yummy.
Monyet like me love it.
Look at her evil smile. Hana hana Happy birthday.
Aw. She cried.Zai go hug her.
Sindy doesn't seems to want her hug.
LOL.
-KIDDING OKAY
WOI BIRTHDAY GIRL
THE BANANA CAKE
Alright. Put the bdae celebration aside. Here are some snapshots taken my Marcus lappy. It was quite some time ago already, when Zai and I got our red extention in school.
See my sexy pose.
A bit turn off.
I know what you did last summer.
Similarities.
Halved.
Professor Marcus and his gang.
Brain dropped behind the eyes.
I don't know what the fuck are we doing in this picture.
I look like pig.
He look like hammer.
She look like a man.
Boobies.
I don't know how to describe this picture.
I see, I will laugh.
Lick lick lick lick like a lolipop.
WAHAHAHAHAHA.
rock on rockers.
p/s: boyfriend! Muah.
Lick lick lick lick like a lolipop.
WAHAHAHAHAHA.
rock on rockers.
p/s: boyfriend! Muah.
rose
Evil Domination in action
Monday, December 01, 2008
Last friday night.
I took my boyfriend's time for the rest of the day after school.
Back to basic.
Bedok Reservoir.
Where it alllll happens.
Love.
Young chic. Ah pek's.
Drug abuser.
Fugly.
The scorching sun.
Away from the water.
Experience the past.
Dusk.
Dark domination.
Bad turns evil.
I took my boyfriend's time for the rest of the day after school.
Back to basic.
Bedok Reservoir.
Where it alllll happens.
Love.
Young chic. Ah pek's.
Drug abuser.Fugly.
The scorching sun.
The bright lamp post.
God.
Bright lolipop.
Whatever you wanna name.
Away from the water.
Experience the past.
Look at the past.
Think about the past.
Beautify the past.
Beautify the past.
Dusk.
Dark domination.
Bad turns evil.
Mean, yet feast to the eyes.
Brighter tomorrow,
It could have been love.
Brighter tomorrow,
might not always happen.
Shades of colours.
No lack of colours.
It could have been love.
You are so amazingly almost-perfect.
You're like those beautiful shades of colors produced by the power of nature.
You can almost heal my everything.
p/s: i miss my boyfriend
p/p/s: i wanna go shopping for christmas
rose
