xoxo, rosette

WHY????

I happily printed the namecards and earn myself extra cash. Reena called and told me that there is an error made. Worst still, error in the NAME!

What to do?

Reprint lor, it's my fault anyway. =(

What's worst?
MY PC!

I found out some of my private folders are being shared in my bro's account. I think I lost of my files and also, affected my account. I couldn't open MSN messenger and my internet explorer is gone. My default wallpaper ain't showing but only the plain blue wallpaper. I feel so sick and tired of figuring out what to do man!

Pissed enough, I'm like re-downloading my MSN and trying to get things back to normal.

Anyway, went to work today with my new pair of black heels. Now, I have 3 pair of blacks high heels at my workplace. And one of the bitch wore it before I did.

"Wow so nice...is it my size?"

FUCK YOU LA

Today, the club is full of bloody BBQ smoke lah. Come on man, how can you conduct such in the club itself if you know that it will be super smoky? The whole club is full of unplesant smelling smoke and people are complaining at us! And we at the front desk need to tahan all this nonsense. Luckily I left at 8, poor Shobana need to stay until 10pm. I wonder how is she doing now...

Oh ya, I checked my results of my Sem1. Not bad, better than Norman! My GPA is 2.7. I got an A for culture, B for Enterprise, and the rest, er, C+, C+, and ya, I just pass my computing.

Yesterday, I went to Yenxi's house. It is very far in and it's quite a distance away from Newton MRT station. It is very quiet and suitable for the peaceful people. I really appreciate all her effort in making this party happen and the food is really nice. I always love Penang food. =) She called me when I was on the way back home and told me that Aaron was actually on his way. OOPS!

We took many many pictures and we really had fun. The last part where the guys were playing BBall was real funny. Yenxi and I was laughing our ass off man!

AND PEOPLE OF E36E,

LUNCH CONDUCTED ON WEDNESDAY
THOSE WHO WANNA JOIN US, FEEL FREE TO CALL US AND MEET UP.

I just checked my classmates and more than half of the class are girls. Sian, I always have problems with the same gender. I DON'T KNOW WHY.
I even asked Siddiq why while chilling at Chomp Chomp lor. From young until now, I still have not figurer out the answer. Oh my god, bless me.

AND

There will still be Basis Sciences and Computing lor. It is a really huge turnoff for me. NB, why they don't want to go straight into our course!!!

I am working late again tomorrow. ALONE, worst. Feel like a loser man!
My sch reopens, Liee is starting to have his holidays. SIGH

rose

WALL-E !

Today's highlight was watching Wall-E with the long time no see, Tan!

Well, since he asked me to claim my dinner from him, why not? Norman is going to leave in the evening, so decided to meet him for dinner.

We meet up out Safra Tampines and had a chance to ride on his very nice Vespa. It's been soooooooo long since I ride on. The feeling of riding at the back is damn GOOD! I enjoyed my time with him, even though his Vespa is slow. I am kind of concern if my weight is an issue, causing it to be too slow. HAHA.

Wall-E is not a bad catch. I think it is rather funny, and the very small details are really cool. So try to notice them and they will make you laugh your ass off. Liked Tan said, there's 2 point in the movie.

1. A love story

2.Saving earth

So I actually added one more point,

3. To show so strong love can be

I think it is reasonable to say that, so watch the movie and see if you agree!

Talking about Tan, he asked me to define being Single.

I said:

Freedom, no hassle, no mutiple calls,no multiple text, no hard feelings, no fights, selfishness allowed, don't have to care more abt the other half, no worries, no burden, more alternatives, being yourself.

I know some of you may say I won't be able to get the very special love or special moment. I know that but the reason of me not getting attach is because of commitment. Maybe I can just simply say that I am not ready for all this yet. I am only ready for friends, fun and myself.

And I hate it when I received a text or a call that can ruin the rest of my day.
It sucks.

Anyway, earlier before I meet Tan, I meet up with Norman. We went to far east plaza and did a little shopping. He's out there to get contact lens and birthday present for his brother. I bought a new cap, watch, contact lens, heels and put on 2 more pink extensions. A little pamper won't kill right? =D

We walked around and went to this skateshop that Aaron asked Norman to visit. It's called Board & Stuff.

I love their watches, one of the caps and also their shoes! The two guys in there are damn cool and they're really funny people! Before Norman and I left the shop, this guy came running out telling me that there's one pair of shoes that has size 6. Well, most of the shoes are for guys, in order for me to wear it, it must have really small size. So this guy came and the shoes look really nice and rocking style. I tried it on and it fits!

GREAT, $160
AND I DON'T WEAR SHOES.

So I was saying to Norman that I am kind of getting myself into a mess on self-identity. I am a flats and heels person, and you asked me to buy shoes? And I was also saying if I wear the shoes to school, it will be damn dirty due to the mud.

"Don't walk on the mud!"

I wish.

I said I will consider about it and the boss said:

"Well...this pair of shoes is really nice and if any girls out there drop by, they might be gone"

AND I SAID:

"Well...if I come back with cash and it is still around, it's mine."

If I'm not wrong, the name is whatever Supra thingy. The glitters at the back of the shoes are really glamourous. After some laughing, we went off.

I meet up with Liee before meeting Tan because I was early.
Liee's really stress up man! I wonder how is he doing for his exams.......................

YOU GO BFF!

Oh! I have to collect the namecard before it's closed and I am going to Yenxi's house party later.

WHO DON'T LOVE PARTIES?
I DO! I DO! <33333

rose

I have been trying to upload my Sentosa pictures up in my PC. My friends are still loading the pictures from their camera and handphones. I made a new album in my friendster named "Devil's prank". It is still set to private, and it will be released to the public after all the photos are fully uploading into the album.

My mind was so distracted today and I have no idea why. This particular person has been appearing in my mind since last night and I feel really weird. I manage to get outta bed at 12pm today. I took a bus to the printing shop to print namecards. It was raining and I forgot to bring an umbrella.

TRAGIC...

I told my mum that I will be back a.s.a.p and she was waiting for me at home. I ran in the rain and the boss kept talking to me about MAC book. Then I ran across the road to catch a cab UNDER THE RAIN. I feel like a complete fool and there were no freaking cab. Then I saw an avaliable cab. But guess what?

IT U-TURN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD.

I was like what the fuck? People were looking at me and thinking I am crazy. So I walked to the nearby bus stop and my bus came. I should have walked to the bus stop.

I went to Tampines Mall with mum, actually wanted to catch a movie - Meet Dave. I was late and we missed the show. Reena called up and ask me to take her shift today because she wasn't feeling well. Sadly, I couldn't if not, I'll pissed my mum off. It's been sooooooooooo long since I go out with her.

We had lunch together and shopped. I bought 2 new pair of white shorts and a black top. Maybe I'll be wearing that on Friday during Yenxi's house party.

I was totally worn off when I'm at NTUC with my mum.
JADED.

I still have to bring Machi out for a walk and I am soooo lazy...
Hopefully the namecards turn out well and Reena and her friend will like it.

Alright I received some new photos already.
Update laters.

rose

" Coincidence = Hurt
Hurt= Coincidence"

Kamal

Do you find it true?

Personally speaking, to a certain extend. It does happen to me and it can be good and bad. But sometimes you just don't wish to give anymore details further because you don't want to think about the past you had. It is that sucky and sometimes, coincidence makes people's life miserable.

I feel that it is a difficult issue to explain and to tell. When it happens that you tell the truth to the person that you always look upon to, or you love, they don't seems to be understanding enough or believing in what you told them.

It hurts.

I don't know what I am typing here now because it is like out of madness or frustrations or sadness. Sometimes the things that you have done in the past affects what is currently happening now in your life. You don't want to explain or elaborate because you don't know how to link it and give the other party a good reason.

And here, I just wanna say that it all happens to be my fault to always choose the wrong person to love, to adore, to keep. No matter in dating, in relationships or other scandalous affairs, SOMETIMES WE DO NOT KNOW WHETHER IF HE/SHE IS ATTACHED.

I remove it from my heart and threw it so far to make sure that I won't be able to see it again no matter how hard I try to find it the next time. Meaning - I choose to walk away.

What else do they expect me to do?

Ignore? Show attitute? Be arrogant?
HELLO? You are living in the new era now.

I used to think this way:

Attached? Not married yet what

Married? Can always divorce what

Dating? Open yourself to more options

BUT NOW,

Attached? Good luck, have fun

Married? How many kids you wanna have?

Dating? Always be sincere.

It is that difficult. I don't know they are attached, it happened to be this way that they wouldn't wanna let me know in the first place. It happens to have chemistry.

Sigh.

rose

Even though I worked for only 4 hours today, I feel like I worked for 8 hours.

WHY?

Because I am doing things that is none of my bloody business and it's a tough time and I hate it. Why am I doing it for her? Because I have got nothing to do so I offered to help. It was too late to realise that I made the wrong choice. But later when the clock ticks at 5pm, IT'S HEAVENLY.

It's like having chocolates on the white soft bed with thick and comfy cushions and blanket and air-con blowing upon you, watching movie on a huge screen, body tucked underneath.

It is that good. I changed into my casual clothings and I saw Reena in the toilet. After some serious complaining, I ran out of the club and look for Shah and Siddiq. I was also talking on the phone with Norman how bad my day was.

BUT

Everything returns to normal when I started chilling with the 2 men. It is the damn it first time drinking in the hawker. I'm drinking in the hawker!!! ROSETTE IS DRINKING IN THE HAWKER OKAY.
People changed siah.

It was fun and chilling. We talked about guys and hot babes. Hot guys and babes. Personality and character. Fate and chasing after destiny. Ego and pride. Real feelings and sincere appreciation. I didn't expect myself to learn so much within that 2 hours? Siddiq calls me the Relationship Guru. RELATIONSHIP GURU OKAY! He's my love guru. He knows why. I think he should be either laughing or smiling if he drop by this entry. Hahaha...

It ended up Shah ran back to the club and left me and Siddiq. Do you know to me the possibilty of having drinks with him alone is less than 1 per cent? He's entering his mid 20s soon..

anyway bro,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SIDDIQ

Yah man...he should be celebrating his birthday with the rest now and sadly,can't tag because I was having something on. Hope he's having fun!

After that, went home for dinner and now I'm sitting in front of the PC.
I feel like shitting.

And to SOMEBODY who become a hot single again,

WELCOME BACK

You're still good lah. Right behbeh?

rose

Bullshit pick-up lines I encountered:

"Come live in my heart and pay no rent"

Reply: Siao

"I need some sunscreen because you are burning me up!"

Reply: It doesn't make me any happier

"Hi how u doing?"

Reply: Okok

"I know what caused global warming! You!"

Reply: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I'll get killed or locked up by then

"hmm knock knock..."

Reply: Nobody's home

"Can I drop an application to be your lover?"

Reply: No

"So Im here. What are your other two wishes?"

Reply: Sorry wrong wish

"You look so sweet. Can i have a sample?"

Reply: I cannot be duplicated.

"Im going for showhand. How about you? Dare to game on? I'll be waiting"

Reply: You think too much

"Hi there's a story behind every face. Can you share yours with me?"

Reply: What story?

"If i tie a string around your feet, will you be my balloon?"

Reply: . . . what's this man?

I hope everyone is off work by now. I mean the office people because I don’t like to transfer their calls to them BECAUSE USUALLY THEY WON’T ANSWER AND I HAVE TO SEND THEM THE EMAIL.

And seriously, I really appreciate people who reply to my mails because it shows they received, read and shown appreciation towards my work.

What the hell am I talking about?

I wonder if my mum and dad know what my job is like and they would give me allowance. I remembered my manager told me that she encouraged me to take up admin job in the office in the club. I think it will be a problem because I don’t like it. It’s so messy.

Rafi wore his new technician uniform and I think it is way better of what he’s wearing usually. Hamid will be wearing his soon and I think it will also look good on him. I seriously think that guys who wear uniform look good. Look neat and tidy. Syah just pulled out my new pink extension to Rafi.

“Why you touch touch?”

Hahahahahahahahaha

A little bit and entertainment added up each time is a lot. But I must emphasize again, even though it is irritating, BORING.

Today’s news article on The Newpaper:

CLUELESS ABOUT SAFE SEX
Expanding new sex education to express students

I thought it’s for everybody? I am not very sure about it though.
Another sub-heading is that a 15-year-old was together with a 33-year-old and they have sex 4 times a week.

Response?

!

I need a new pair of contact lens now. I’m like wearing expire ones one. Pathetic right? Norman will help me buy a new pair. But I am wondering which color to buy.

Purple is not me. It is too Barbie doll for me. Blue I tried before. Same goes to green and grey. I don’t want to wear brown because I think it is too common. I think I will go for grey again. I like the feeling of looking like a wolf.

If only they allow internet access here, I can do a lot of things! Sigh

rose

Something you might notice…

Sometimes you can see I publish 2 to 3 entries in a day’s time. That is NOT because I have too much to say or too much to share. It is actually because that I do my entries in Microsoft Word in my workplace, send as attachment to my mailbox.

Why am I doing this stupid procedure?

1. Even though the front desk has a computer, but it disallow us to access the internet.
2. I am so bored that I have to type my heart out here
3. I am too lazy to blog when I get home because I am too tired. Normally I will watch movies on my laptop.

So, it have been days since I blogged and that was because my brother is always in front of the computer. It sucks right? Yes it sucks. And yes, I am working 9 hours straight today without moving too much at the front desk. This is a gruesome torture. Do you know that I even pick up the English Dictionary yesterday in the front desk drawer, trying to learn new words? It only means my job is shit work. I feel like I am the centre of everything, transferring calls and doing all the shit jobs.

It’s a Monday. I STRONGLY BELIEVE that almost 99% understands what Monday Blues is. I just saw Najib and it kind of brighten up my day with a surprise of what the heck is he doing here on Monday. It feels great to see familiar faces in remote or cannot-easily-adapt places.

Yesterday night while I am doing movie text, Samuel and this Indian guy whom I never seen before walked past me. Samuel told me that he thinks that I am hot. I am HOT okay! But seriously, it doesn’t feels good when it comes from a mouth of a fugly. Is that hurting? Ok I’m sorry.
I will be having 3 off days straight from Wednesday onwards. I need to send my designed cards for printing, update my entries, check my mailbox, update myself with music, tidy my room, go out with mum, attend Yen Xi’s house party and maybe going for a couple of swimming and tanning sessions. But it has been raining for quite some days already and hopefully it won’t rain as much and the sun will shine.

I really think that a smoking area should be implanted at the workplace for the needs of smokers. I mean for STAFF ONLY. It will be weird if smoking with members because nobody wants to see their face when they are dying for a smoking break. What is wrong with the club? Yesterday afternoon, member tears his card in front of me and threw it in front of me too! It is NOT my fault of not informing you that the new card is ready. Reason? IT IS NOT MY JOB. There are still so many cards in the drawer that I have to organize it by the initials. If my boss did not inform you, go find my boss and fuck them. That is the hard part in the front office. We are like vases who allow people to adore and admire, or to whack and scatter onto the floor. Maybe it doesn’t happen to everybody, BUT IT HAPPENS TO ME.

I am learning to not curse too much because it really ruins my appearance. I’ve thought about it and it seems that whenever I used Vulgarities on front of guys, they seem to be turned off. So, it’s a big NO for me.

And talking about guys, I think that I am exploring on the wrong prospects of them. There are so many things to find out and I think I always find out the wrong ones. Maybe they don’t show often or maybe they are just acting. I received a text from a guy friend this morning. It makes me laugh when I was on my bed. The word he uses is so not him and I didn’t know he talks like this. But I kind of like it because it really makes me smile. It is obviously typed in by him and the purpose of the message is to motivate your day.
Sadly, it doesn’t work on me.

Okay, the person who read my personal stuff is back.

rose

Love

Love.

Love…

Love…?

I am sitting at the front desk looking out. It’s raining heavily. It is so cold now that I am having a slight headache.

I was chatting with Norman on the phone earlier due to super boredom. He and his brother was getting high when I just casually ask Norman to tell his brother that “Sherman you suck”. Then it stated to bitch thing whereby both parties just deny of calling me a bitch. Haha, how silly.

I am working 1 to 10 today and I am super bored when Shobana left me.

Why so people are brutally attached? Am I saying this because I am jealous or I need desperate love or I am just a nuisance? Whatever la…

Sven came and he wants to read my entry.
He said that I am a loser because I need to go to school earlier than him.
He laughed at me when I am talking to an old man at the front desk.

See…so depressing.

Okay, now I need to fill up the holes of the members name through the very untidy handwriting of them and also the club is playing Umbrella song again.

Time pass so slow and I am going to work 1 to 10 again tomorrow. So happening right? I think I will get Monday blues tomorrow man! I see everybody holding on to their dinner and all. I was thinking when the last time I had dinner with my family was. Like a REAL dinner where everyone is there on time and mum joining us but not at the back washing up or doing the heating up. It’s so difficult right? Thing has been really different ever since we all got a stable job out there.

I think my bro never comes back for dinner anymore until recently whereby he met a ghost.

My sis is always back for dinner and go out with her boyfriend.

I am now working and always try to go back home for dinner.

My father always has dinner at home.

So from here, you can see we always left our parents at home eating by themselves. So sad right! Since I am working until ten today and tomorrow, I don’t think I am able to join them for nay dinner.

Do you know that they are three super strong spot lights shinning down on me? It is so irritating and its worst than the sun! Do they really have to do that? It’s giving me an uncomfortable feeling. It seems that I am complaining more and more. I think I am starting to be irritating soon.

I want to bite something.

rose

Oh my god~

I asked Shobana to buy lunch for me and we decided to have Nasi Briyani at the nearby Indian hawker centre. I still remember I bought food there for lunch last time and it cost 7.50 for one Nasi Briyani, one egg prata and one plain prata. So the Nasi Briyani will cost around $4.50-$5.

So just now, I have Shobana $4 and an extra 50 cents just in case. When she comes back, she told me that the 2 packets of rice cost wholly $12! That means, each packet actually cost $6! I was wondering why so expensive now?

“Because they set up another new stall just for selling Nasi Briyani.”

Do they really have to do that?

For $6, I can eat like a set of Mac meal, or chicken rice with drinks, and a lot more out there at Chomp Chomp. If only I knew, I would already be eating the famous eating rice. =D

Anyway, now that I know, what’s the morale of the story?

1. Food price for rising
2. Ask the price before you buy anything

Apart from that, I have another story to share.

Do you guys like people to read your personal things and asking you personal questions? Or when something ransack your documents in your computer?

Like seriously, come on, if you ever something that you are not suppose to read at all, DON’T READ IT. Can you respect other people’s personal things? And it happened to me.

SHE STILL HAVE THE BLOODY CHEEK TO ASK ME QUESTIONS RELATED TO MY STUFF!
And then apologize with a smile and thought everything is over.

If it is not that it’s at the workplace, I would have YELL AT YOUR FACE.

Pissed.

rose

So lonely

Why are so many of them getting attached now?
Attached. Getting attached. Just attached. Married or not?

Sigh.

I see old couple. It was so sweet.

I see young people like me. It was so last time.

I see couples going out on weekends. It was so romantic.
I freaking working on weekends and normally my weekends are burn.

It’s so depressing when old men come over and ask me to join their company. I wish I have a gun and I will shoot them in their head until their body burst with blood.

The music here is so old. It is so not me.

I feel like going to IKEA.

Boyfriend time?
I don’t think so. Maybe I can consider part time. No string attached, no freedom controlled, I can fly like a asshole out there. No?

But sometimes when you found out that your life is going monotone, you got to do something about it.

I think it has been quite long since I had a whole day dating coverage. SO LONG. I think it’s because I worked, and hang out after work. And and and my wish of picnic with my date hasn’t come true lah. It’s so difficult to find a perfect candidate for that.
Yes I am choosy. Why can’t I?
Yeah bitch.

I don’t know why the freaking club is play Umbrella from Rihanna. It’s so not the club.

Ridwan is here.
Yes my Ice Lemon Tea!
I think I need sugar man!I feel damn good.

HAHAHAHA.

I’m not a perfect person~~~~Hoobastank leh~

I watched a movie called “Because I said so”

I can’t stand the mum. I can kill her if Iam Milley..
Sleeping with 2 dates…I think it’s rather sad for her case. I think it’s not her date anymore. It’s more like boyfriend. OH MY GOD, Johnny founds out that she’s dating and sleeping with another. So heart-breaking. So bitches out there must be thinking Milley is a slut to do that, but come on…GET ALIVE MAN. Kids shouldn’t watch this show. Yes, I am referring to some people out there who literally piss me off whenever I see their bloody face. Sometimes I just feel like taking the pan that is like super heated up and burn their bloody face to make it more bloodier.

Pardon me.

rose

Yen Xi’s House Party!

Yes people, there will be a party at Yen Xi’s place.

Venue: Newton Mrt Station
7 PM

This is another gathering for all of us because some of them are not with us during the 3 days Sentosa gathering. Please join us! For more information, please call Yen Xi.

I love parties!

Saloon hunting

Liee and I met up and went to Far East for Saloon hunting. Ah Paul left us and I’m so sad. When he’s around I did not treasure, now he’s gone, I feel gone too.

We chose one of the saloons that have the hair-tech feeling. It’s great and I think I chose the right one. Thanks Ann!

Went window shopping with Liee and I think I need a cap. AND I HAD GOOD FUN WITH LIEE AT NEW URBAN MALE. Good laugh man! I love you bro!

Oh ya! And we manage to had dinner at the shop that closes at 7.30pm. Hahahahaha!

rose

HELLO BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE

I am back from my Sentosa outing and I am still damn jaded! CHEERS!

On the first day, it was sizzling hot weather. However, it was raining while we were halfway playing beach ball. We thought of playing in the rain since it was only drizzling. However, it became heavier, so we rain to the shelter and took tram.

Is like…what the fuck?

When it stopped raining, we went back and had some tiring fun. Tiring fun? Because I really heat up and engine and started to run! We stopped volley ball because it’s so not fun within us. Hui shan suggested captain’s ball. We drew the line and started playing in two teams. It’s damn fun and Jon hit my face with the damn ball la! Eh…you know how tough the volley ball is?

After 2 rounds, I am so tired and I wanted to stop. We all ran to the sea and soak ourselves in. Later, Norman, Jing Mao and I started pulling people in the sea. Sadly, Yenxi was having her periods. SADLY, we still pull her in. Then slowly Joycelyn, Chu Qiao, Joan. I went back to the shore and sat down and chillax. Jing Mao and Norman and Kenneth koh and khong threw me in the sea. I was laughing and do not have the energy to struggle. *point middle finger

I threw sand balls at Jon for revenge of hitting the damn ball onto my face. He threw me real hard into the sea that the sea water enters my nose and eyes. *points middle finger again

BUT IT WAS DAMN FUN

Then later we went to chalet swimming pool and play with Frisbee. It was sunny and got a little tan. We had ice cold beer while swimming and it was very enjoyable.

We took turns to bath and we get ready for dinner at KouFu. We walked there and had a nice dinner with nice view at Palawan beach.

Norman, Jonathan and I proceed to bar hop. Sadly, most of the bars are close because they were having offs. However, we manage to chill at Café Del Moan. The place is beautiful. It’s very romantic, playful and very nice place to chill with your other half, or a group of friends. I will go back there again with potential dates!
Later, we proceeded to bikini bar, but it was closed, then we took a tram to KM8.
Seriously, if you want to chill and have fun and tan, you can go KM8. It’s the potential place you will be in love with. They closed early and we still stay there and had some martinis. Good…good.

We went back to our chalet and it was so noisy that we got complaints 2 times! Aaron joined us and we were playing this very lame but fun game. I got so dead drunk because I was drinking raw Jim beam and beer while playing the game. I got so high and I asked my classmates to do gross things. I drank the beer that is passed inside the mouth of JM and Joy. Yes, I kissed Joy la. I asked Norman to lick yenxi’s belly button, I asked…I can’t remember. Oh, and I got the video of JM and Kenneth koh frenching! So high.

After all the lovely fun, we smoked and drink and laugh and cry and call.

I WOULD LIKE TO APOLOGISE TO NAJIB FOR CALLING AND TEXTING HIM STUPID THINGS.

My oh god, I’m sorry. Hahahahaha.

I didn’t have a place to sleep at all. Some of them are drunk that they are talking rubbish, some a dead asleep. I woke up at 2am and chill with Norman and Jonathan in the toilet. Then, Norman and I went to sleep by the pool. It was so cold!

The next day wasn’t that fun anymore. It can’t stop raining and I slept til 12pm I think. Went for brunch and slowly the day pass by. I went to play volley ball with Jon and Norman in the evening. We bought some more beers and Sam joined us. Found out some truths while playing the game “I never…”. Yen Xi went crazily shouting the bathroom asking all of us to shut up. I slept very early because I was so shag.

The next morning when I woke up, I find out that so many of my nicotine sticks were gone. MUST BE JONATHAN.

I was the first to wake up and get ready. I went to siloso beach alone while they were still asleep. No people, very sunny, very nice feeling, I hang around like one hour. Got myself a bit of sun and closure. The whole chalet is not ultimate fun but it is part of my Sem1 memory. I love it, and I did not make a wrong choice choosing Sentosa for chalet.

Oh ya…and we went 163 bucks at Giant at Vivo. Champage, beers, food, why so expensive!

I WOULD LIKE TO THANK JONATHAN FOR BEING SO FATHERLY DURING THE PROCESS. WE LOVE YOU, MANFRIEND!

And, I really appreciate Ms. Pearlyn koh for dropping by Sentosa with her family.

It is great. Thanks everyone.
I love E36E.

It’s 3.30p.m now. I am still at my workplace, waiting for time to pass. Crossroads is open and they are playing Norah Jones’ album songs.

It’s very soothing for a sunny day, after the rain.

I have no idea why, a memory flashed back. It was about the last day of work at Raoul Paragon. There is a certain scenario that I was actually thinking about.

It was:

The lights if the shop was all off. I am carrying a huge bouquet of 16 roses on one hand, the other was my handbag. I was approaching the glass door. Once I stepped out, it’s another chapter of my life. Suddenly, I want to re-confirm that I took everything home. So I put everything down, I went inside the storeroom and switch on the lights. I went all the way to the end, where there was this white table with drawers. I see if I left anything behind. Literally, I did not. And literally, I felt a sense of loss. I strongly believe it was because there were tons of memories left behind and also, it was my very first job that I actually stayed for so long. So many people that I know, so many things that I learnt, so many things that I apply to my life, so many happenings that happened before then, was very short-lived. I was wondering, how can I ever bring it all back?
One of the things that I tried to retrieve was to go back there again. I missed the busy and hectic times, and the slacking and eat-snake moments at the back of the shop where bitching occurs. I was so Rosette that time. So…”me”. However, Shi Ting told me that everything changed. If I ever go back there again, it won’t be the same anymore. It won’t be like before. The company changed every single person in the shop, men’s and ladies’ are working individually. It was indeed sad news for me. If I were to go to any outlets, maybe I can be happier. I am still considering.

End of the situation.

Back to related topic, I think I really left Kamal. It was recently, I really thought about him everyday. I was pondering, am I doing the right thing?

One of the reasons why I left him alone was because I really don’t wish to be too dependent on him. All these are killing be at that time. I know he will always be there for me, but, I don’t think it is a good idea to vend all your anger and frustration onto the poor man. I read his letters to me again and it really refreshes my mind. I feel back in time, I feel I need to use them as a guide to get myself through every difficult situation of mine. I bet he won’t be any happier if he sees me in this kind of situation. And yes, I missed his birthday since he’s a Cancerian. And yes, I think I lost a friend.

I felt great when he complimented me during the meeting at the men’s shop. It’s an achievement.

I have always wanting to contact him back and something stopped me. Maybe it’s not time yet, maybe it’s still wrong for me to contact him again. If I were to meet him again, what will I do? I was also wondering if he’s still in Singapore.

He’s like my father. Closer than my father. I like it when I drink with him because I can drink a lot and there’s somebody who can send me home. Oh ya! I still keep the 60 year-old thing in my wallet.

Sigh, rose.

Yeah behbeh~~

Chalet is confirmed!

Alright, for people who Kenneth koh and I left out calling, hopefully you will be reading this entry. =D

We will be meeting at :

Harbour Front MRT station
Control station @ 10a.m

We will be waiting for everyone to arrive before we proceed.

Anyway, I feel violated.
FUCK YOU RONALD DUCK.
He just can’t stop harassing me lah. CCB.

Ahem…pardon me.

Anyway guys, I’ll see you guys soon. Those who are staying overnight, please bring your own personal stuffs you guys need.

okie, kinda piss now.
still damn it disturbing me.

rose

Sunny days ahead?

Yes, I meant the weather. You know…chalet is coming and I really hope it will be a sunny cloudy day without a single drop of rain. Heehee!

I am so exciting about the chalet! Just then, our chalet is just located near the Siloso beach. So nice eh?

Now I am thinking of what to order for food since we did not book any BBQ pit. That is because I hate smoky flames and cleaning up the damn place. I think 17 people are going and we will just order fast food or eat out. Oh ya! I don’t think there’s any kitchen available, so it’s another reason why we don’t book the BBQ pit. I think most of the time we will be having fun outside and also chilling out at the available bars.

All these reminds me of having fun when I was Secondary one. I stayed overnight for 3 days at Aloha Loyang with my friends. We made a huge mess and did not sleep well at all! It was really fun and exciting during the process and I will always remember vividly. Recalling back, time passes so fast! I’m like having chalet with my poly friends now.

You know…we really need to enjoy our youths before everything vanishes ( we couldn’t turn back time right?). SO YOUNG PEOPLE OUT THERE, ENJOY WHILE YOU CAN!

rose

I think I am getting sick soon. The high possibility of getting sick might be because of that Terence. Sore throat la…

Okay…Reena can’t make it to work today at 5, so Poor me, has to cover her shift. By right, I’m working 1-6. Out of all sudden, work until 10pm at night. By the time I go back home, I think I will be having my supper instead man! Oh shit…

Even though today is Wednesday, but it happens that it is a busy day! Luckily it is busy, because at least I feel time is passing fast. Currently, it is very quiet and here I am, typing entry for my blog. =D Soon it will be Six, people will start rolling in for dinner.

I hate it when I am trying to swallow my saliva down to my throat because I can feel sore throat is coming on the way to attack it. SHIT!

I am not sure if I want to go out tomorrow man! I feel so lazy and I just want to stay at home, do my stuff like manicure, pedicure, spend time with mum and Machi, etc. And also, I think I should really start saving now. Hahaha…

I am going to work for the rest of the week. Holidays are 3 weeks, 70 per cent spending time over at the club. But I don’t feel like the place is the 2nd home. What worst?

I hate to work on weekdays because people start to call and searching for people working here I don’t know. Oh…and of course not seeing my boss’s face. Stress mah…lol.

Oh…Samuel pass me a crème puff. How sweet.

Somebody went home.
OMG…she stab a knife behind my back 2 times!!
BUT,
I kicked her ass and stab her back once and for all.
Surface can be deceiving!

That’s why, my boss just can’t stop telling me that-

“ There will be always good and bad side…people can turn nasty anytime”

It happened.

You know…I don’t know if I am superstitious or something, I just can’t stand it when my left eye brow starts to :jump”. Most people say that it is a bad thing and I HATE IT. I’m like praying whenever it starts to jump and hopefully it’s because I am tired.

I also hate it when somebody, like my parents asked me to be careful in whatever I do, skip the relationship part because this a bad year for me.

SIAN LOR

How to move on? I would rather don’t know than to know. In this case, ignorance is bliss.

rose

Happiness…

One question - Are you happy?

If anyone were to ask me this, I think my answer will be a no. It is not that I have no blessings to count, or me being apathetic about the disastrous incidents that are happening around me. It is a very simple question, and honestly speaking, I am not happy.

I will not know how to answer if you ask me why. Unhappiness don’t make up of only one component. There are many components. For me, I guess it will be work, studies, finance and family. That is very typical. Other than that, what else could it be?

Sometimes I am thinking that I am bringing misery to myself. Sadly, I just realize that. But now, I wish I can make up for myself. =D

I remembered I watch a movie called - The pursuit for happy-ness. Can you ever imagine somebody who tried so hard to make their loved one happy by providing everything he can, and being forward-looking, bearing all the misery for the sake of their own future so that he could have a better life? When I was watching it, I feel terrible. Especially the part whereby they stay one night in the public toilet at the train station. Despite of the pathetic situation, the lead actor still make an effort to make his son happy. No frustrations, no complaints. I don’t think I can do that.

And I am proud of my dad.

But still, I am not happy. Maybe I am not having the life that I should have. Arghh…totally paranoid.

Happy…not happy…?
Rosette oh rosette…shut up.

rose

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL
END OF SEM ONE

No more paranoid samantha
No more irritating aaron
No more man friend jonathan
No more monotone kenneth koh
No more 6P jing mao
No more green freak norman
no more...no more.

Sem 2 is coming after the holidays and all of us in the class will be re-shuffle into different class. It is quite sad because we don't like and offended a lot of people in this building. We were crossing fingers so that we won't get into the same class as the people we dislike. LOL

Anw, Vid and I ordered Rite Pizzas are the class. I would like to apologise here because I put 4 full packets of chilli powder. As a result, they all went to the food court and buy drinks and left me along in class taking care of their personal stuffs and laptop. GOOD JOB.

We were also watching "My wife is gangster 3" in class and I want them to be quick to watch the other half!! Arghh...My lips are burning, I want a vigourous kiss. =D

I miss this class and I'll be looking forward for the upcoming chalet @ Sentosa. I wanna relax and chill and enjoy myself before everything collasped onto me. HAHAHA omg my stomach is burning hot...wooo!

EH WY THEY HAVEN'T COME BACK YET!
oh...Wendi bought his camera along and took so pictures. I think I am going to upload it here if he upload in his computer and would send it to me. HEE!

Holidays are coming and Im working lor. NB.

rose

AH BENG NIGHTOUT

actually not ah beng. Just out with a ah-beng-like person, or should I say, used-to-be-a-ah-beng person. It has been so long since I last meet him. I think the last time was when I was giving him a treat at Liquid Kitchen@ maju ave. Then I receive no more updates from him again. Materialistic eh!

Anyway, caught up with him a few days ago online and came to found out that his phone was dead. He lost all the memory from the memory card and went to fix his phone. Ah, meet him last night after work for dinner at breeks@ marina square. He fell sick 4 days ago and still sick. Poor thing, makes me sick too.

It was a great dinner. =)
THANK YOU.

......................................................................................................................................

I suddenly think of a post to write. About married and attached people.

It came to my mind because while chatting with my friend last night, I told him that I came to know more mature people that I thought. He's one of them, and he told me,

" We are the old and beautiful people"

Hmmm...debatable.

Well...Liee knows that I have fetish to know older people. But when it comes to this, it happens that I know older men that are already MARRIED. I reckon that married men are hot. I feel that way, men in their early 30s. I met some hot ones, I did meet some not-so-hot-ones. But still I think most of the married men in their early 30s are quite hot. =D

But still, I prefer guys in early and late 20s. They're fun loving. hohoho.

gay isn't?

AND THEN, normally good ones are taken, not avaliable. Sian lor, ATTACHED men are normally...usually...I THINK ..are sad. Because they are like so sick of their own partner texting and calling them all day long asking where are they, when are they meeting up and what time they will be calling their gfs. Sad not?

That's why I told Liee that I might just need a part-time boyfriend, in short, I want a short-term relationship. My life is kind of...monotone. While choosing and looking, they are either MARRIED(they look young), or ATTACHED.

sigh. why so difficult?

I would also prefer to know that person in real life. Better right? I sorta hate that kinda feeling when scandals occur (with attached ppl), because even if you fuck care, you will still have a tinge of guiltiness inside you.

Don't have ah?

Im sick of dating life, because im dating the wrong guys.
maybe it's because i dont like them.
those that i like,
HALF OF THEIR HEART STOLEN,
or,
DON'T BOTHER OTHER GIRLS.

maybe im not hot enough.

Ok wait wait, I am not hooking attached people.
I just like them.

ya la ya la
bitch slut whore

I hate those girls who use one of the words mentioned above when they are one, look like one, act like one and BORN LIKE ONE. Like seriously, get alive. Bitch and slut is okie to me, but using whore is a bit out-of-ur-mind. It's hurting and even if I hate somebody so much, I won't even use that word! AND, it's not wrong to be bitchy.

once, a man told me

" If you want to be a bitch, be a super bitch"

Eh, i find it quite true.
I mean, there's a lot kind of bitch out there.
Be the good super bitch...sound off la, a bit.

sigh, girls.

rose

hello world
guess what I am doing during 080808?
IM WORKING.
HAHAHA

9 FUCKING HOURS
HAHAHA.

As you can see, I almost went crazy ytd night because I work from 1pm to 10pm. My break is only freakishly half an hour and the people there were celebrating having a countdown party. With the VERY VERY LOUD music just behind my head, and the VERY VERY COLD air-con upon my face and head, and a VERY VERY EMPTY stomach, I feel like a ZOMBIE.

Then I went home after 10pm, the minister came. HAHAHA, she didn't even see me at the entrance. Later, saw Edwin at the bus stop. He decided to bring me for a pint of cold nice beer. Updating a bit, laugh a bit, joke a bit, gossip a bit, go home and sleep.
SO NOT HAPPENING.

wtf?

rose

Let me lay out my thought here…

Sometimes I was wondering WHY am I still working for my current job, WHAT makes me stay on, WHY am I bringing this misery to myself, where I am able to get a better job nearer to my house, higher than my current pay and 3 friends of mine is over there and of course, longer working hours.

My holidays are coming and I am pondering should I resign now and get on to another job during the holidays OR should I stay til the holidays? Sadly, I am hungry now and want to want to eat.

No passion for this job and still staying. You people should be bitching how stupid I am to stay on to this job. The people here are weird and sick and I think I am becoming one soon. Now, I am actually thinking of resigning if anything wrong were to happen because I am sick and tired of the shit that always happened to me.

And I am sick of phone calls.

I want to enjoy my weekends with my family and friends to relax myself. It is so difficult to reject an outing with friends during weekends because it really tempts me to go out and spend time with them. Maybe my financial status reminds me of the consequences of not working.

Liee is always indirectly reminding me how bad my job can be. He always says “ So far…aiyo…” or “ Why so pathetic?” or “ Don’t work la…just get allowance from your parents might be a better choice”.

HAHAHAHA.
STAB ME.

I am stress out when I wanna go out with my mum. Always, she will ask me, “ You pay for everything is it?”
Sian lor…don’t go out already.

Yes, I AM SAD.
The fact that I am sad is because I want to enjoy spending my parents money like every young people out there before I really start to work outside permanently. I am NOT a bad girl of not spending my money on my mother. That is because I don’t even have enough on myself, how can I even buy her things?

Why, liked what Liee said again, there is no overnight thingy between daughter and mother. YAH that’s why I still owe her a lot of money and thinking I should pay her back after I got many many money. ( Which will take quite long)

Okay, back to work, I NEED A GOOD JOB.
I don’t feel like Rosette. Rosette is not like that. =(

I used to wear the same thing, black long sleeve, long working pants, tucked in with belt, done hair, good make-up and super high heels. I went to the same bus stop. But the difference now is I am taking bus 58 to serangoon rather than taking bus 5 to orchard.

OMG…so not me.

I had enough.
Enough is enough.
I want to be better,
And I will!!!!

Sad rose

i skipped sch and watch the dark knight with aaron.

"WHY SO SERIOUS?"

rose

A night out with BFFs

Hello everybody! It’s BFF time!
I received a text message from Leslie that he will be meeting up with Andy. He asked me to meet them on that day and I did! I meet them after work and reached Orchard, Heeren, at around 7pm. It’s actually quite troublesome travelling from Serangoon to town. OKAY I AM JUST LAZY LAH.
Leslie bought a new cap and I think it’s really nice. I saw a Tee shirt that I like that I didn’t buy. In instead, I bought a pair of sandals for myself. I think I have too many pair of heels. If I were to buy one more new pair, it will be easier for me to match with other shirts and bottoms. Leslie said that I am havoc in buying that pair of sandals but it’s okay, it’s not wrong to be different mah. =p
Had our dinner at Far east. We actually had a restaurant in mind but when we reached there, the lady told us that they are already close. I was totally surprise because it’s only 7.30pm. Isn’t that dinner time? HELLLLLOOO? So, we turned to other available restaurants. The food was okay but not as nice.
It’s a very short outing but it turned out to be a great day. Oh, and I suck in play the one of the PSP games. I feel so noob. BUT ANDY, YOU WILL LOSE ME IN AUDITION LOR. (I’m not playing anymore thou.) One more thing, we really had difficulties taking photo of the 3 of US. I was wondering if Leslie is going to upload it.
p.s: Liee and Andy, so how’s your presentation? Did you rock balls? Lol…

rose

Design and technology

I was working today and I saw 2 boys holding on to their A3 size file folder. It is August now and I believe it will soon be time for them to hand in their folio. =)

I still remember the days of my N levels and O levels of doing my D&T folio. Liee and I rushing and coming up with innovative ideas on our folio and also, doing soldering on our LEDs. It was very tough, very bitter period. The process was hell for me, as a girl, learning all sort of mechanism, electronics and fixing with the metals, wood and plastic. Staying up late in school getting our artifact done. Oh ya! And going to the 24 hour Mac to do my sketch. There was once my artefact wasn’t working and I was so panic! Other than that, on the submission day itself while I was touching up my folio, Enz’s mango juice spilt over my folio! Sadly it can be, I cried.

!(*&$^$@##@%$&%#%^&

Turns out to be okay. It was a memorable recall and I am prod of myself (even though Uncle Roger and Mr Peh help me in most of my work. Haha!)

Alright the-soon-graduates BUCK UP AND KEEP GOING!

rose

French is a romantic language

It happened that I met 2 French people today at work. I had a mini chat with them. They asked me if we speak French here, I said no. I mean, as a person at the front desk, I don’t know French. They reacted “ oh damn…why?”

. . .?

They told me that French is easy to learn if we speak that everyday and also have a French as your partner and he will teach you everyday. He also added that French is a language of love, and if I am into romance, he encouraged me to pick up French. And also, he introduced me to this French guy that he could be my partner.

Oh…ang mo.

So, back to the topic, he also asked me if I am working full time or part time over here. Asked me what course I am taking but he didn’t ask for my age. I mean if he asks, he probably will take back all his words. Oh bother!

I actually wanted to pick up Spanish instead. Well I didn’t told them I was interested in Spanish more than French because I’ll most likely piss them off. I did ask around for classes but at that time, they were no Spanish language classes available. I told myself to give myself 2 years to pick up a new language and it seems that I failed. Okay, stop thinking I am a loser.

rose

Dressing glamorously

Ever dressed up glamorously? It can be your graduation prom night, or attending your loved ones’ wedding dinner. It can also be some greatest parties! I believe most of the people do dress up for occasions. It is a great feeling and this is where your strong confidence about yourself is being unleashed!

Anyway, I was out with my chill-out session with Liee yesterday at Tampines’ Starbucks café. The tables were all full and it happened that we luckily got a seat. While we were updating each other, we were this a-bit-plump-size lady. She was wearing a black halter neck with white pokka dots. She wore a very short flare-out-ballet kind of skirt with lace in black. Bottom up with a pair of black high heels. Heavy make-up drawn on her face and hair tied-up. Okay now, IT IS NOT WRONG TO DRESS LIKE THAT, I need to emphasize that. Maybe it doesn’t suit her as much because of her body shape, or maybe she dress for the wrong occasion? Will you dress up this way if you are out with a cup of coffee with your friends at a neighborhood area’s café? Well maybe if you have some mambo thingy going on later at night. But it’s already soon past midnight and she’s there. The funny thing was, she was grabbing every empty chair she saw to her table of friends. The way that she carry was sort of, awkward though.

I couldn’t stop looking at her, seriously. I am a very distracted person and her presence really “took my breath away”.

Alright, maybe she’s back from a party. =D
AND, she at least knows how to make herself pretty!

I don’t understand why some people hated cosmetic so much. I am a person who loves cosmetic. I strongly believe that all classmates and friends of mine are aware of that. Maybe to some people, they think that natural beauty is better than putting up a mask on one’s face. Hiding behind the mask is insincere and blab la bla, but then, for ME, I would say I am just trying to present well in front of others.

I still remember the first time I had my make-up on. That would be when I was Kindergarten One. I reckon that I am being influence to do so because my mum and my sister also doll-up themselves. In such environment, I learnt and I apply to myself.

Some girls don’t use cosmetic and they are all natural. I see them as another icon of beauty. Liked everyone said, “there are no ugly women, only lazy women”!

rose

Ever suffer from a break-up? Or maybe…break-upS. Now here, I am talking about the very sad and down moments that happened in your life before. And I would like to apologize if my entry were to remind you of anything depressing.

I still remember vividly my first break-up. If you asked me describe how I was feeling at that point of time, I would say, I feel like a loser. Well…is getting dumped a good or a bad thing? Everyone has their own opinions about it. However, I reckon that getting dump is something good BECAUSE at least you flaws are found out by other person and you would at least know and realize that you have it. Maybe you can put some effort in changing and improving yourself? I see some cases whereby they became worst and did not accept the fact that they have weaknesses. Sadly, they can only found that out when they learn how to accept the truth. Well…you know…The Truth Hurts.

Anyway, I was devastated at that time. Basking myself in agony and misery was my way of living and I drink like there’s no tomorrow. Serious at it is, at least I am all fine now.

Last month, I watched the movie – Sex and The City with my darling Dawn. One of the tough break-ups happened to the lead actress, Sarah Jessica Parker. Can you ever imagine on the day that you were getting married, this shit actually happened? For all the years that you have spent with your beloved other half simply vanished.

She went out for a holiday and supposing, it should be a romantic gateway for the newly wed. However, it all turned out to be a holiday for the four beautiful ladies. After the holiday, everyone was back to their own jobs and doing what they are suppose to. Ya I know, one of them had a fight with her husband because he had sex with other woman, another feels that she is trying to love his male model boyfriend more by showing more concerns, another is bless with a China husband, and the other is trying to get out of shadow of losing his beloved. Here I want to emphasize.

They all moved on.

It’s a bit irritating when you heard people consoling the other to move on and I really think that it’s NOT easy. No matter what experiences you had in the past relationships, the person who got dumped will not be listening to you. They are shittly sad and utterly disappointed by themselves.

You can help them by drinking with them, spending time with them, talking to them, making them feel important.

For those who just suffered just a break-up, just blame it on the cupid. =D

rose

PEACEFUL DAY

Have you ever had bad experiences on public bus rides? I believe out of 10, maybe around 3 will have bad experiences on bus rides. Regardless you sat beside a crazy woman, or even somebody farting causing "pollution" in the bus. Or even caught up fighting in the bus.

Today, I took a bus with my mum back home from Tampines. It took quite some time waiting for the bus to arrive. But what's new? Anyway, it was around 6.15pm and the bus was as usual, crowded. My right hand was carrying some heavy things, that I need to tranfer the bags from one hand to another. I couldn't get myself a sit and I have to stand throughout the whole journey.

Yes, the bus was super packed with people and I really feel like a loser standing at the tail at the bus, holding to two heavy bags. More and more people were trying to squeeze in and it happens that the bus driver kept playing the voice record to convince the people to move back so that other passengers can board on. BUT THE PROBLEM WAS, there wasn't anymore space!

It is FINE with you play that damn thing for once, but I was thinking why do he have to play it 2,3 times in a row? It was very irritaing and I really felt agitated. But the worst was yet to come.

What was the bus-stopping bell for? To stop the bus at the next bus stop. A young lady pressed the bell and the bus driver refused to open the door. Instead, he kept playing the damn voice record and letting people to board on the bus when there were like...NO MORE SPACE. Wow...how professional. But that young lady did alight after the bus driver realise..."oh~~somebody pressed the bell."

Wth?

AND IT HAPPENED AGAIN!!

A old man tried to alight but the bus driver close the front door, he DID NOT open the back door to let people exit, HE DROVE OFF.

Omg?

What is happening here? Is this a social phenomenon? I was totally surprised and shock to experience that because if I were to put myself in the victim's shoes today, I would have gone crazily swearing at the bus driver!

rose