You give your hand to me and then you...walked away?
I have a bad dream last night.I don't know what is the dream trying to tell me,or is it that I have made the wrong choice?I hate this dream.
There was an air of uncertainty.After I woke up from my dream,there's a sudden flash of blue light.I was wondering what's wrong with me.Did I wake up on the wrong side of the bed again? A piercing sense of loss when I think about it again.
I dreamt that he left me, and went off to another girl.He told me that he have to go,and he went off without any vaild reasons.
Occasionally,I wondered and even doubt about us.Were we trying to force one of the puzzle into a big jiasaw?But the border of the jiasaw is not yet completed,how are we going to carry on?
My daily routine now includes his msges and calls.But are all these his job in his daily routine?
He went bbq yesterday.It was raining in the afternoon.I opened up my eyes from my nap and thought of him.How worried I am,afraid he will caught in the rain.Hope he doesn't or he will get a flu easily.
the dream last night...
Saturday, April 29, 2006
i have nobody.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
feel my pain and you will know how much i've loved you.hold me close if you really want me.please do not walk away while i picked up the pieces that you have actually break.cuz the pieces of my heart have once pierced into my soul.
i have nobody.
i share my joy with myself.
i share my sorrow with my tears.
as i tucked myself under the blanket,
my tears flow endlessly while i dream of you.
how cruel can it be,
of once i've been fooled before.
i have nobody.
as my eyes are shutting,
i stubborning force it open,
so that the image of you,
will literally disappear into the thin air.
I lay upon my bed,
wondering how much would i score,
for the love i gave it to you.
will i fail?will i pass?
why does all these end up like an examination?
once,
the burning passion for you never dies.
i strongly believe in myself that,
you will loved me too.
now,
the fire is gone.
as the cold wind pierce through my throat,
the last thing i wanna say to you was just,
i love you.
always thought im always blessed,
and loved.
but one fine day,
i finally found out there's no eternity.
how i wish someone could catch me when i fell.
but...
there's just people who walked by me asking...
are you ok?
and their shadows vanished within the air.
and i'll never stand up again?
as my soul flew away without notice,
much to my dismay,
i have nobody.
rosette's pain.
i have nobody.
i share my joy with myself.
i share my sorrow with my tears.
as i tucked myself under the blanket,
my tears flow endlessly while i dream of you.
how cruel can it be,
of once i've been fooled before.
i have nobody.
as my eyes are shutting,
i stubborning force it open,
so that the image of you,
will literally disappear into the thin air.
I lay upon my bed,
wondering how much would i score,
for the love i gave it to you.
will i fail?will i pass?
why does all these end up like an examination?
once,
the burning passion for you never dies.
i strongly believe in myself that,
you will loved me too.
now,
the fire is gone.
as the cold wind pierce through my throat,
the last thing i wanna say to you was just,
i love you.
always thought im always blessed,
and loved.
but one fine day,
i finally found out there's no eternity.
how i wish someone could catch me when i fell.
but...
there's just people who walked by me asking...
are you ok?
and their shadows vanished within the air.
and i'll never stand up again?
as my soul flew away without notice,
much to my dismay,
i have nobody.
rosette's pain.
the time we FIRST MET.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Sometimes I miss you so much, I just want to rip you out of my dreams and hug you!
Yesterday I went out with my parents.We went to orchard and took a walk around the town.Well...tiring day as my feets really hurt due to my heels.Ouch!
On the way home in the car,I was msging Lun.Telling him how silly he was as he still sms me when he's busy working.
Way back,I have a sudden thought of how we first met.I laughed at myself how silly we were at that moment.This sweet memory still kept deep inside my heart.I didn't really think about it cuz` I reckon that it was too precious too be true.
I am still able to recall.My parents wanted to go IMM.The first thought in my mind was Lun.At that time,we're still not so close but he confessed to me already.Eager to know how he really looked like,I decided to peep at him at his workplace.
Before I did that,I msged him to ask whether he's around.Yes he was!
So my parents were buying food and I walked over to Bk.Hmm...where is he?
In front of BK,there's a shop selling flowers.I was attracted by the roses.As I was admiring those roses,I was thinking maybe i can give him a hint that I am here.Anyway, The shop is just right in front of me!Yahh...can't find him.Then I noticed a guy kept looking at me,standing there.I didn't bother and I walked off.
He msged me that he saw me.So actually that guy I saw earlier was him.How stupid I am, unable to remember his looks.So the thing ended up he looking at me, not I looking at him.That's unfair.My eyes were round searching for his shadows but his body was just right in front of me.The sweetest thing was that he tried to jump behind the machine and check on me! :D
Okay I know it sounds pretty lame but you know...it is sweet for mE.hAhaha..
The second time we met was 2 days before my birthday.My heart was pumping so abnormally.But the night ended up really ...nice?How cool...how unbelievable.
Yesterday I went out with my parents.We went to orchard and took a walk around the town.Well...tiring day as my feets really hurt due to my heels.Ouch!
On the way home in the car,I was msging Lun.Telling him how silly he was as he still sms me when he's busy working.
Way back,I have a sudden thought of how we first met.I laughed at myself how silly we were at that moment.This sweet memory still kept deep inside my heart.I didn't really think about it cuz` I reckon that it was too precious too be true.
I am still able to recall.My parents wanted to go IMM.The first thought in my mind was Lun.At that time,we're still not so close but he confessed to me already.Eager to know how he really looked like,I decided to peep at him at his workplace.
Before I did that,I msged him to ask whether he's around.Yes he was!
So my parents were buying food and I walked over to Bk.Hmm...where is he?
In front of BK,there's a shop selling flowers.I was attracted by the roses.As I was admiring those roses,I was thinking maybe i can give him a hint that I am here.Anyway, The shop is just right in front of me!Yahh...can't find him.Then I noticed a guy kept looking at me,standing there.I didn't bother and I walked off.
He msged me that he saw me.So actually that guy I saw earlier was him.How stupid I am, unable to remember his looks.So the thing ended up he looking at me, not I looking at him.That's unfair.My eyes were round searching for his shadows but his body was just right in front of me.The sweetest thing was that he tried to jump behind the machine and check on me! :D
Okay I know it sounds pretty lame but you know...it is sweet for mE.hAhaha..
The second time we met was 2 days before my birthday.My heart was pumping so abnormally.But the night ended up really ...nice?How cool...how unbelievable.
You locked your heart.
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Love is like a mountain, hard to climb, but once you get to the top the view is beautiful. However, I am sorry to say that I fell from the mountain.
I have not been online for about a week.Busy with my tests and trials.I just kept studying like nobody's business.Anyway...who cares?
All alone for these 6 days.Once I stepped out of the house, is either I go for my revision hours or throw the nonsense rubbish to the bin outside.Other than that,I just stay as a retard,facing the unlively books and the 4 white walls.Maybe I still turn my eyes to my handphone.Checking whether my phone is ringing, but still, it remain as silent.
My cable sucks.Unable me to transfer my songs to my handphone and pictures to the computer.Didn't bother much cuz` it make no difference at all.
Early morning I wake up,outta my bed but always wake up on the wrong side of my bed.Still, I have to continue my day.
I have a bad day today.Maybe some people knew but they think Im alright.But Im actually pissed.
I was asked to paint the cardboard.So i did put in my effort.When Im back from recess,the painting was spoilt.Someone destroyed it.I was totally upset that I shouted in class" WHO DID IT?!".Nobody respond until leslie asked around.Is the damn malay guy, Faris.
I nearly cried, but nobody notice.I kept my tears swallowed into my heart.But deep down, Im terribly upset.When Faris is back,everyone shouted at him.I didnt bother.I just want to save my art work.I save my art work silently.
Raining heavily today.Was having oral exam but is over.Kinda confident about it.Later I went home with Jasmine and Qing En.Same routine.
Back to my cosy bed after shower.Here again, holding on to my phone.He's sailing til friday.I guess i will not say the 3 words again cuz it sound so insincere.To him, maybe it was just a comman use phrase with no meaning.But when I really do miss him,I will.
Send him 2 msges to console myself I still in love.
It was like he locked his heart and prevent me from going to him, unable to know what he is thinking.I just wanna know whether you're serious or not.
I strongly believed that waiting is one of the most and long period of pain.And I definitely know you're understanding towards me.I just wanna tell you i did not take you for granted cuz` i trying to give you all that I am able to.But sometimes it can be quite disheartening when things have a sudden change.But if one day you're tired of waiting,please tell me and i'll tell you what to do.
From the time you whispered I love you into my ears,
You did not melt my heart, but my soul.
From the moment onwards,
I know Im blessed with your love.
I just wanna say,
I love you more than words can say.
Please wait for me til I am free from the restrictions,
and our love will be spread around the globe.
I have not been online for about a week.Busy with my tests and trials.I just kept studying like nobody's business.Anyway...who cares?
All alone for these 6 days.Once I stepped out of the house, is either I go for my revision hours or throw the nonsense rubbish to the bin outside.Other than that,I just stay as a retard,facing the unlively books and the 4 white walls.Maybe I still turn my eyes to my handphone.Checking whether my phone is ringing, but still, it remain as silent.
My cable sucks.Unable me to transfer my songs to my handphone and pictures to the computer.Didn't bother much cuz` it make no difference at all.
Early morning I wake up,outta my bed but always wake up on the wrong side of my bed.Still, I have to continue my day.
I have a bad day today.Maybe some people knew but they think Im alright.But Im actually pissed.
I was asked to paint the cardboard.So i did put in my effort.When Im back from recess,the painting was spoilt.Someone destroyed it.I was totally upset that I shouted in class" WHO DID IT?!".Nobody respond until leslie asked around.Is the damn malay guy, Faris.
I nearly cried, but nobody notice.I kept my tears swallowed into my heart.But deep down, Im terribly upset.When Faris is back,everyone shouted at him.I didnt bother.I just want to save my art work.I save my art work silently.
Raining heavily today.Was having oral exam but is over.Kinda confident about it.Later I went home with Jasmine and Qing En.Same routine.
Back to my cosy bed after shower.Here again, holding on to my phone.He's sailing til friday.I guess i will not say the 3 words again cuz it sound so insincere.To him, maybe it was just a comman use phrase with no meaning.But when I really do miss him,I will.
Send him 2 msges to console myself I still in love.
It was like he locked his heart and prevent me from going to him, unable to know what he is thinking.I just wanna know whether you're serious or not.
I strongly believed that waiting is one of the most and long period of pain.And I definitely know you're understanding towards me.I just wanna tell you i did not take you for granted cuz` i trying to give you all that I am able to.But sometimes it can be quite disheartening when things have a sudden change.But if one day you're tired of waiting,please tell me and i'll tell you what to do.
From the time you whispered I love you into my ears,
You did not melt my heart, but my soul.
From the moment onwards,
I know Im blessed with your love.
I just wanna say,
I love you more than words can say.
Please wait for me til I am free from the restrictions,
and our love will be spread around the globe.
ROAR my heart out...
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Eee...Today have to go e-filing for my cip hours.It really suck my day and drain my tasty blood.It's SUNDAY and it is supposingly to be a relaxing day!
Yahh...called Elisa a few moments ago and asked what time this stupid thing ends.5PM,OMG, are you kidding?I would rather go tuition than going this tidous thing.She even added that there will be a lot of people.What the shit? You guys are suppose to finish this e-filing long time ago right? OMG, the worst thing is that Im afraid I do the wrong stuff and I'll be in trouble!
I really don't wish to go cuz` i ain't feeling so good about it.I should have gone to the old folks' home and perform on stage than doing this.AHHHHHHH!
Ok...blame me cuz` i brough myself to this state.I do not have a proper CCA and yahh...good job.
Yahh...called Elisa a few moments ago and asked what time this stupid thing ends.5PM,OMG, are you kidding?I would rather go tuition than going this tidous thing.She even added that there will be a lot of people.What the shit? You guys are suppose to finish this e-filing long time ago right? OMG, the worst thing is that Im afraid I do the wrong stuff and I'll be in trouble!
I really don't wish to go cuz` i ain't feeling so good about it.I should have gone to the old folks' home and perform on stage than doing this.AHHHHHHH!
Ok...blame me cuz` i brough myself to this state.I do not have a proper CCA and yahh...good job.
Heart at rest
Saturday, April 15, 2006
Stop crying your heart out...
You're not one of the reasons why life is worth living, not one of the reasons why I'm happy all day long, neither why I'll never feel alone - you'll never be one of the reasons, because you'll always be the only reason ..
Finally, my heart is at rest.
How worried, i was last night.I was as if on a roller costal ride...
So deeply affected.I can say I have never handle this kind of situation before.Being inexperienced,what I did was to kept quiet.
Have a talk with Lun last night.I never expect myself to talk to him.Under my best friend encouragement, I picked up the courage and called him.If not, I would still be lost in the middle of nowhere.
Had a mild headache while talking.So i decided to stop the talking.The comversation was full of silence,but my heart was full of doubts.But I didn't intend to clear my doubts, cuZ` I believe actions are better than words.In the end,I blured out the 3 crucial words, I love you.
Is really hard to say, but i have to inorder to let him know how much I care, how much I love, how much I give.As long as he believes in me, as long as he knows how much he mean to me,I think that's enough.
How fragile, I am.Thought I have always been strong, I have seen the weaker side of me.A strand of tears came rolling down my cheeks,how i wish nothing happened at all.
my one and only,
lun.
Fragile tears.
Friday, April 14, 2006
Whenever life seems to drift you away from me, I can't help but cry. You've grown to be such a part of me that without you life is no more than a desperate sigh. They do say love comes and goes, and to that I disagree. So, here's my hand, take it and don't let go of me.
If I ever seem to take you for granted, forgive me.
More than you would ever know, more than I could ever show, more - much more - with each passing day, Darling, I love you.
I wasn't able to express myself today, cuz` it's really hard.Once I looked into your eyes, my heart pumped really quick at one go.
My heart was smashed into countless pieces.
Is this my happy ending?
Loving someone wasn't that easy.
It takes 2 hands to clap.
While I picked up the pieces,
Baby,please don't be angry.
Cuz` i love you more than words can say.
If I ever seem to take you for granted, forgive me.
More than you would ever know, more than I could ever show, more - much more - with each passing day, Darling, I love you.
I wasn't able to express myself today, cuz` it's really hard.Once I looked into your eyes, my heart pumped really quick at one go.
My heart was smashed into countless pieces.
Is this my happy ending?
Loving someone wasn't that easy.
It takes 2 hands to clap.
While I picked up the pieces,
Baby,please don't be angry.
Cuz` i love you more than words can say.
Makeover?
Saturday, April 08, 2006
If you can't get someone off your mind maybe they are supposed to be there.
Woke up early in the morning at 10am.Well I blame Era cuz` she msged me in the early morning.Supposingly I should sleep til 11am.All thanks to era.Well done era!ROAR!
So I have to help out for the HRSS.Before that I have my meet-the-parents session.I was totally suprised when I saw so many of my classmates in class.Im kinda like.."haaaa!Nice to see you guys!".Ya...really weird with their parents sitting beside them with their eyes on me as if they're thinking"who the hell is this crazy shit?".Yahh...didn't care much and went to my sit.Mum was talking to Shaun's mum.You know...aunties.
Fortunately,nothing bad about me was being said to my mum.Yet there were compliments.Way better than last year.My teacher even asked me to bring my mum to the display to see my artefact i've done last year.He even said i've talent in drawings and designing.He also told my mum that the class notice boards are done up by me...i mean PARTLY.My mum was...totally impressed.Next thing was about my handwriting.BOTH were impressed.I believe none other than leslie and i,nobody should have that kinda handwriting in the school...yeah leslie? HAA...
Yah!Rush to the toliet to change to my homeclothes.Cuz gg to orchard straight away.My uniforms and shoes were then brought back with my mum.So here...another changed person,walking with confindence.
Well got really tired!But halfway we went for our lunch for about...1 hr plus?Then went back to play with the rabbits.Well they're really cute but I love dogs more.Ha! Went to the nearby 2nd hand shop market to buy a pair of earrings.Yahh...spendthrift.
Next! We went to the nearby esprite.I was attracted to the new spring/summer eyes shadow.And that lady actaully oulled me along to the side and i actually have an makeover.OMG.I was just asking about how to use the dark blue colour eye shadow and she make me over.The foundation she apply on my face was too fair,the eye shadow was really nice.It was only cuz` of the foundation.I DO NOT look like myself at all!I looked like a piece of...wilted rose?
I rushed to the corner and have some"edit" on my face.It was way BETTER than b4.So sick!
Went to raffles city to look for Lun.Well I didnt tell him that Im gg there to looked for him.Actually wanted to msg him that im coming down,but i didnt cuz i wan to give him a surprise. :)
Went down with elisa and went around shopping 1st.Went into the shop...warehouse.We tried on a few and I love it!Well..it cost a bomb! Damn it expensive. :(
Went down finally.Didn't see him at 1st but later he appeared from no where.lol.Yet he's the one who gave me the surprise.
Well i guess his friends knows.Went forward to order my dinner.And that guy was crazy.He kept smiling.Well...he knows it.
So everyone knows it.Then lun came forward to the counter with that...i think is manger card.Cancel off the order i guess,so i dun have to pay for that.I was like..."was my 10 bucks invisible?".haa..
Yahh..while i was talking they were standing at the counter.Dint bother much until i went off.
A tiring day.
i love u.
Woke up early in the morning at 10am.Well I blame Era cuz` she msged me in the early morning.Supposingly I should sleep til 11am.All thanks to era.Well done era!ROAR!
So I have to help out for the HRSS.Before that I have my meet-the-parents session.I was totally suprised when I saw so many of my classmates in class.Im kinda like.."haaaa!Nice to see you guys!".Ya...really weird with their parents sitting beside them with their eyes on me as if they're thinking"who the hell is this crazy shit?".Yahh...didn't care much and went to my sit.Mum was talking to Shaun's mum.You know...aunties.
Fortunately,nothing bad about me was being said to my mum.Yet there were compliments.Way better than last year.My teacher even asked me to bring my mum to the display to see my artefact i've done last year.He even said i've talent in drawings and designing.He also told my mum that the class notice boards are done up by me...i mean PARTLY.My mum was...totally impressed.Next thing was about my handwriting.BOTH were impressed.I believe none other than leslie and i,nobody should have that kinda handwriting in the school...yeah leslie? HAA...
Yah!Rush to the toliet to change to my homeclothes.Cuz gg to orchard straight away.My uniforms and shoes were then brought back with my mum.So here...another changed person,walking with confindence.
Well got really tired!But halfway we went for our lunch for about...1 hr plus?Then went back to play with the rabbits.Well they're really cute but I love dogs more.Ha! Went to the nearby 2nd hand shop market to buy a pair of earrings.Yahh...spendthrift.
Next! We went to the nearby esprite.I was attracted to the new spring/summer eyes shadow.And that lady actaully oulled me along to the side and i actually have an makeover.OMG.I was just asking about how to use the dark blue colour eye shadow and she make me over.The foundation she apply on my face was too fair,the eye shadow was really nice.It was only cuz` of the foundation.I DO NOT look like myself at all!I looked like a piece of...wilted rose?
I rushed to the corner and have some"edit" on my face.It was way BETTER than b4.So sick!
Went to raffles city to look for Lun.Well I didnt tell him that Im gg there to looked for him.Actually wanted to msg him that im coming down,but i didnt cuz i wan to give him a surprise. :)
Went down with elisa and went around shopping 1st.Went into the shop...warehouse.We tried on a few and I love it!Well..it cost a bomb! Damn it expensive. :(
Went down finally.Didn't see him at 1st but later he appeared from no where.lol.Yet he's the one who gave me the surprise.
Well i guess his friends knows.Went forward to order my dinner.And that guy was crazy.He kept smiling.Well...he knows it.
So everyone knows it.Then lun came forward to the counter with that...i think is manger card.Cancel off the order i guess,so i dun have to pay for that.I was like..."was my 10 bucks invisible?".haa..
Yahh..while i was talking they were standing at the counter.Dint bother much until i went off.
A tiring day.
i love u.
Eyes closed.
Friday, April 07, 2006
Thinking of you is easy - I do it every day. Missing you is the heartache, that never goes away.
I just wanna keep my eyes closed.To stray away from the nonsenses around me everyday, and every stress im pressurized with.
I slept very early this past few nights.I think at around 9 plus.I was so tired and shag that I do not have anymore energy to even think of anything.Here I go,tucked myself under my blanket and my eyes closed til the next morning.
My mid-year is coming very soon.Followed by my prelim and then,the big one, N level.Going through so many tests and trials every week.Of course I will be really jaded...
Today I have my pft.Having my 2.4km run.I was intensely exhasted.However I am able to finish my run.Lucky I borrow a digital watch from leslie or I guess I will not even bother about the run at all.So here, I passed.For the next few PE lessons Im free from everything.
How stress out.Even love couldnt do a single thing to my life.Cuz he's always away and I have limited time,so it make no difference.I am not that type of person who born to can able to express my thoughts and how I feel to people.But im learning to.Cuz I learnt from my past experiences.I cannot afford to make another mistake again.But the thing is, so what if im expressive to other?Will others repond to me in the same way?Guess I still have to keep guessing until i really understand them.Saying "i love you" is not the point to show how much you love him.or telling him "i miss you " to let him know how much heartache you have while he's not around.It is when you found out that you are actually crying for him while he's not around because you missed him a lot.Yet, he did not know anything or how much sorrows you have actually took.You will imagine and wonder what if one day you leave him or he leaves you.Because love cannot be explained.
How much I loved you?
you will never understand my heart.
I just wanna keep my eyes closed.To stray away from the nonsenses around me everyday, and every stress im pressurized with.
I slept very early this past few nights.I think at around 9 plus.I was so tired and shag that I do not have anymore energy to even think of anything.Here I go,tucked myself under my blanket and my eyes closed til the next morning.
My mid-year is coming very soon.Followed by my prelim and then,the big one, N level.Going through so many tests and trials every week.Of course I will be really jaded...
Today I have my pft.Having my 2.4km run.I was intensely exhasted.However I am able to finish my run.Lucky I borrow a digital watch from leslie or I guess I will not even bother about the run at all.So here, I passed.For the next few PE lessons Im free from everything.
How stress out.Even love couldnt do a single thing to my life.Cuz he's always away and I have limited time,so it make no difference.I am not that type of person who born to can able to express my thoughts and how I feel to people.But im learning to.Cuz I learnt from my past experiences.I cannot afford to make another mistake again.But the thing is, so what if im expressive to other?Will others repond to me in the same way?Guess I still have to keep guessing until i really understand them.Saying "i love you" is not the point to show how much you love him.or telling him "i miss you " to let him know how much heartache you have while he's not around.It is when you found out that you are actually crying for him while he's not around because you missed him a lot.Yet, he did not know anything or how much sorrows you have actually took.You will imagine and wonder what if one day you leave him or he leaves you.Because love cannot be explained.
How much I loved you?
you will never understand my heart.
untittled
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
I give you all my love because I truly love you, but I can't give you my soul and my heart because you'll just break it apart...
Another boring day...
everyday following the same routine just cannot keep me alive.Im physically tired and can't help it as my eyes are closing everytime when the teachers are speaking in class.Now one of my favourite action,yawning.My mum just hate to see me yawn because she have no idea why i am so tired.So this morning she prepared chicken essence with gingsheng.But sorry mum,it DOES NOT help at all.
Have my SS test and i was totally shocked this morning when i reached school.my classmates are holding SS notes.OH MY GOD! there's a test!I have my English test during study hour too.Kinda suck because i'm the one who hand in my test paper the last.
Met up with Lun yesterday.Went to the nearby Mac to do my hmk.Well because yesterday afternoon was raining very heavily.And my house kena 2 times short circuit.Im so pissed off because im charging my phone!After I finish my work.we went back to my house nearby neighbourhood.We search for a nice place and sat down.
This was when I starting to feel really worried.
Well we have some nice chats and of course so bad chats.Actually i am extremely furious when he told me something about his friends and him.Yah,he's a night owl.He often hangs out with his bunch of buddies to have fun.But i hate it when he told me something that i DO NOT wish to listen.I don't care what his friends did in that KTV or damn place where there are "misses".I don't like the details at all.But i didnt show my anger at all.Because in status,we're both still not tgt.So why should i even care?I kept quiet for the rest of the evening.I didnt show much expressions because i do not know how to react to his detailed descriptions.I don't wish to look into his eyes nor i wish to get close to him.Yeah...maybe im too naive,in a sense of understanding one's character traits.I am not exposed to the reality world yet and please excuse me from knowing all these!
Another boring day...
everyday following the same routine just cannot keep me alive.Im physically tired and can't help it as my eyes are closing everytime when the teachers are speaking in class.Now one of my favourite action,yawning.My mum just hate to see me yawn because she have no idea why i am so tired.So this morning she prepared chicken essence with gingsheng.But sorry mum,it DOES NOT help at all.
Have my SS test and i was totally shocked this morning when i reached school.my classmates are holding SS notes.OH MY GOD! there's a test!I have my English test during study hour too.Kinda suck because i'm the one who hand in my test paper the last.
Met up with Lun yesterday.Went to the nearby Mac to do my hmk.Well because yesterday afternoon was raining very heavily.And my house kena 2 times short circuit.Im so pissed off because im charging my phone!After I finish my work.we went back to my house nearby neighbourhood.We search for a nice place and sat down.
This was when I starting to feel really worried.
Well we have some nice chats and of course so bad chats.Actually i am extremely furious when he told me something about his friends and him.Yah,he's a night owl.He often hangs out with his bunch of buddies to have fun.But i hate it when he told me something that i DO NOT wish to listen.I don't care what his friends did in that KTV or damn place where there are "misses".I don't like the details at all.But i didnt show my anger at all.Because in status,we're both still not tgt.So why should i even care?I kept quiet for the rest of the evening.I didnt show much expressions because i do not know how to react to his detailed descriptions.I don't wish to look into his eyes nor i wish to get close to him.Yeah...maybe im too naive,in a sense of understanding one's character traits.I am not exposed to the reality world yet and please excuse me from knowing all these!
another boring day...
Saturday, April 01, 2006
yes...another boring day without his msges.he sailed off this morning.wasn't able to reply him because i was deep asleep.after i replied him,he didnt received his msg again. :(
Friday,31/03/06 the last day of march.
Woo!i usually love friday because i can rest well for my next 2 days.but now it sucks!only for the last period.i mean i do not like physics.unlike leslie,he loves it.and he can really pick things up very quickly.how about me?i was sitting there like an idiot.kinda sucks.i guess i have to go uncle roger's house more to revise my work to catch up with leslie!
during physic class...
oh god...here i am in the room i hate the most.the physic lab!oh my god...look at those stupid stuff around me.it really made me sick! sickening subject INDEED.anw,the room was like damn it HOT with the fan OFF.what's wrong man...i was sweating like nobody's business.era and i were trying the balance the ruler in top of the hell shit...knife thing?i dunno what is that called but it is actually damn it stupid.just spend my time just to balance the ruler on top of the sharp thing.yes,i didnt made it.i mean a lot of people didn't made it too.hahaha...so who cares?
it was 12 noon and speech day's audience need to move their chairs to the hall.im one of the lucky 5 students that did not have to go because i have my eye checkup,as if...LOL.anw,when everybody left the classroom,only the teacher and the 5 students, including desmond and leslie,were in the lab.Kinda fun though because no more lesson! so we sit around the table.our teacher asked why we hate this subject so much.well..." Cuz` we are unable to love this subject.Love cannot be fored.right?"...yahhh..my teacher kinda give us don't-be-lame look back to us.after our short craps and chats,let's go home!
Mean while...
my mum called during my lesson.Kinda pissed off though.cuz she called just to ask me to go over to the supermark to buy yam for her.oh pls! it 's like so far and i've to walked there again AND again! Wtf?! so i actually argue and have a little fight with her.i told her " wao lao! do you know that i've to walk a long way there.the yam is so big and you actually want me to carry that sick thing back home?i already have a heavy bag and thick book and you expect me to buy another HUGE thing and bring that HUGE thing back home with my HUGE bag?"
she's pissed! she just hung my phone...like i care.
but i called back cuz` im kinda GULITY.at least i am! and at least i called back!she actually" WHAT?CALL BACK FOR WHAT? DON'T WANT TO BUY DONT BUY LA!"here she goes,another bad day.So rush out of the school and was calling back again.I calm down and ask her whether she wants me to buy for her.so...in the end, i still have to buy that for her.HMPH.
reached home ard 1.30pm.meeting lun later at 2.30pm.so i quickly have a shower and change.he hates people who are late...
blow my hair....make-up...doll-up...medicure my nails...done!then my mum askedme to try out her "soon gui"..then wei lun called that he've reached.so went down and there he is.he drove me to ang mo kio to have our lunch.then to causeway point to have a movie.Ice age 2.well...not as nice as ice age 1.quite boring.but still funny and touching for some parts of the show.
and i dunno why,sg was rainin heavily.actually wanted to go to east coast to have a walk but failed due to the heavy rain.so i went back home and took an hour to reach bedok.anw,i have a nice day.even though the time we spend together was short but sweet. love u lun.
meet leslie up 1st at bedok interchange and have lunch with him.he's late again.but i still wait for him patiently.here he goes...looking at me with his eyes telling me that he've reached.i was like..."what?"haa...
and i did smth i shouldnt do!i drank coke.it has been a long long time since i have a long burp.at the end of our lunch i burped so loudly that everyone watched at me.well...i still say sorry and walked away with confidence.
went to the house rabbit society today and everything sucks! it was a total wastage of my time!i would rather spent my time on something more useful than to sit down there and open my ears and listen to things that i do not want to listen.it just all about my cip points.kinda sux...
anw...everyone in my group sabo my to act and im stuck!that person asked me the question ..i was like... "................................................." all the way as i looked into her eyes.then went back home with my group.elisa shumin and eileen stopped at bedok.jasmine qingen and i stopped at tampines cuz` there are more buses.we went back together and have our dinner at our house nearby.it's really cool cuz` we kept laughing non-stop from the time we stepped out of the mrt to our way back home.ha! laugh inside the bus,out of the bus,while eating,while going home.i didn't know that we can talk THAT much and and and and and laugh that much,esp jasmine.she's cute!
my day ends here.
Friday,31/03/06 the last day of march.
Woo!i usually love friday because i can rest well for my next 2 days.but now it sucks!only for the last period.i mean i do not like physics.unlike leslie,he loves it.and he can really pick things up very quickly.how about me?i was sitting there like an idiot.kinda sucks.i guess i have to go uncle roger's house more to revise my work to catch up with leslie!
during physic class...
oh god...here i am in the room i hate the most.the physic lab!oh my god...look at those stupid stuff around me.it really made me sick! sickening subject INDEED.anw,the room was like damn it HOT with the fan OFF.what's wrong man...i was sweating like nobody's business.era and i were trying the balance the ruler in top of the hell shit...knife thing?i dunno what is that called but it is actually damn it stupid.just spend my time just to balance the ruler on top of the sharp thing.yes,i didnt made it.i mean a lot of people didn't made it too.hahaha...so who cares?
it was 12 noon and speech day's audience need to move their chairs to the hall.im one of the lucky 5 students that did not have to go because i have my eye checkup,as if...LOL.anw,when everybody left the classroom,only the teacher and the 5 students, including desmond and leslie,were in the lab.Kinda fun though because no more lesson! so we sit around the table.our teacher asked why we hate this subject so much.well..." Cuz` we are unable to love this subject.Love cannot be fored.right?"...yahhh..my teacher kinda give us don't-be-lame look back to us.after our short craps and chats,let's go home!
Mean while...
my mum called during my lesson.Kinda pissed off though.cuz she called just to ask me to go over to the supermark to buy yam for her.oh pls! it 's like so far and i've to walked there again AND again! Wtf?! so i actually argue and have a little fight with her.i told her " wao lao! do you know that i've to walk a long way there.the yam is so big and you actually want me to carry that sick thing back home?i already have a heavy bag and thick book and you expect me to buy another HUGE thing and bring that HUGE thing back home with my HUGE bag?"
she's pissed! she just hung my phone...like i care.
but i called back cuz` im kinda GULITY.at least i am! and at least i called back!she actually" WHAT?CALL BACK FOR WHAT? DON'T WANT TO BUY DONT BUY LA!"here she goes,another bad day.So rush out of the school and was calling back again.I calm down and ask her whether she wants me to buy for her.so...in the end, i still have to buy that for her.HMPH.
reached home ard 1.30pm.meeting lun later at 2.30pm.so i quickly have a shower and change.he hates people who are late...
blow my hair....make-up...doll-up...medicure my nails...done!then my mum askedme to try out her "soon gui"..then wei lun called that he've reached.so went down and there he is.he drove me to ang mo kio to have our lunch.then to causeway point to have a movie.Ice age 2.well...not as nice as ice age 1.quite boring.but still funny and touching for some parts of the show.
and i dunno why,sg was rainin heavily.actually wanted to go to east coast to have a walk but failed due to the heavy rain.so i went back home and took an hour to reach bedok.anw,i have a nice day.even though the time we spend together was short but sweet. love u lun.
meet leslie up 1st at bedok interchange and have lunch with him.he's late again.but i still wait for him patiently.here he goes...looking at me with his eyes telling me that he've reached.i was like..."what?"haa...
and i did smth i shouldnt do!i drank coke.it has been a long long time since i have a long burp.at the end of our lunch i burped so loudly that everyone watched at me.well...i still say sorry and walked away with confidence.
went to the house rabbit society today and everything sucks! it was a total wastage of my time!i would rather spent my time on something more useful than to sit down there and open my ears and listen to things that i do not want to listen.it just all about my cip points.kinda sux...
anw...everyone in my group sabo my to act and im stuck!that person asked me the question ..i was like... "................................................." all the way as i looked into her eyes.then went back home with my group.elisa shumin and eileen stopped at bedok.jasmine qingen and i stopped at tampines cuz` there are more buses.we went back together and have our dinner at our house nearby.it's really cool cuz` we kept laughing non-stop from the time we stepped out of the mrt to our way back home.ha! laugh inside the bus,out of the bus,while eating,while going home.i didn't know that we can talk THAT much and and and and and laugh that much,esp jasmine.she's cute!
my day ends here.
