xoxo, rosette

Let me lay out my thought here…

Sometimes I was wondering WHY am I still working for my current job, WHAT makes me stay on, WHY am I bringing this misery to myself, where I am able to get a better job nearer to my house, higher than my current pay and 3 friends of mine is over there and of course, longer working hours.

My holidays are coming and I am pondering should I resign now and get on to another job during the holidays OR should I stay til the holidays? Sadly, I am hungry now and want to want to eat.

No passion for this job and still staying. You people should be bitching how stupid I am to stay on to this job. The people here are weird and sick and I think I am becoming one soon. Now, I am actually thinking of resigning if anything wrong were to happen because I am sick and tired of the shit that always happened to me.

And I am sick of phone calls.

I want to enjoy my weekends with my family and friends to relax myself. It is so difficult to reject an outing with friends during weekends because it really tempts me to go out and spend time with them. Maybe my financial status reminds me of the consequences of not working.

Liee is always indirectly reminding me how bad my job can be. He always says “ So far…aiyo…” or “ Why so pathetic?” or “ Don’t work la…just get allowance from your parents might be a better choice”.

HAHAHAHA.
STAB ME.

I am stress out when I wanna go out with my mum. Always, she will ask me, “ You pay for everything is it?”
Sian lor…don’t go out already.

Yes, I AM SAD.
The fact that I am sad is because I want to enjoy spending my parents money like every young people out there before I really start to work outside permanently. I am NOT a bad girl of not spending my money on my mother. That is because I don’t even have enough on myself, how can I even buy her things?

Why, liked what Liee said again, there is no overnight thingy between daughter and mother. YAH that’s why I still owe her a lot of money and thinking I should pay her back after I got many many money. ( Which will take quite long)

Okay, back to work, I NEED A GOOD JOB.
I don’t feel like Rosette. Rosette is not like that. =(

I used to wear the same thing, black long sleeve, long working pants, tucked in with belt, done hair, good make-up and super high heels. I went to the same bus stop. But the difference now is I am taking bus 58 to serangoon rather than taking bus 5 to orchard.

OMG…so not me.

I had enough.
Enough is enough.
I want to be better,
And I will!!!!

Sad rose