xoxo, rosette

Happiness…

One question - Are you happy?

If anyone were to ask me this, I think my answer will be a no. It is not that I have no blessings to count, or me being apathetic about the disastrous incidents that are happening around me. It is a very simple question, and honestly speaking, I am not happy.

I will not know how to answer if you ask me why. Unhappiness don’t make up of only one component. There are many components. For me, I guess it will be work, studies, finance and family. That is very typical. Other than that, what else could it be?

Sometimes I am thinking that I am bringing misery to myself. Sadly, I just realize that. But now, I wish I can make up for myself. =D

I remembered I watch a movie called - The pursuit for happy-ness. Can you ever imagine somebody who tried so hard to make their loved one happy by providing everything he can, and being forward-looking, bearing all the misery for the sake of their own future so that he could have a better life? When I was watching it, I feel terrible. Especially the part whereby they stay one night in the public toilet at the train station. Despite of the pathetic situation, the lead actor still make an effort to make his son happy. No frustrations, no complaints. I don’t think I can do that.

And I am proud of my dad.

But still, I am not happy. Maybe I am not having the life that I should have. Arghh…totally paranoid.

Happy…not happy…?
Rosette oh rosette…shut up.

rose