xoxo, rosette

Today there's no chinese period. Everybody was happy.

Everyone went to the school atrium and mr lee was informed. We went to the school library. I'm not feeling too well, physically and mentally. I know i am strong enough to keep myself going...

I dun wanna study my poa, it's a disaster.

I went to the last shelf of books, sitting of the narrow space. Nobody's disturbing me, its so peaceful.

Chicken soup for the soul, maybe i should read it.

As i read, there were a lot of touching stories. I really respect them. Since they can pull it thru, y cant i? I know it works.

I came across this phrase and realise my grave mistake: If you try to dominate people, ure already defeated.

I was already wrong in the initial stage, but i did not realise.

I had a bad day in school.
Tears cant stop flowing whenever someone ask me- are u okay?

Decided to visit him, though time off. I dont know what to do. I was thinking...will my presence disturb him?

He shld be slping...parents working...no food? ok...buy him lunch then. Oh! dont forget abt the drink. his fav. peel fresh orange juice. I ran to his house.

Hmm...parents ard and air-con on. smth's wrong.

En's ard and i shouldnt be here...right?

I walked away.

I ask him to leave me alone cuz he's the one who initaited it.

He left.

He called.

We hung the call.

And im back here, scolding myself.

I thought i was strong enough, but i was wrong.
I broke down, crying like a crazy bitch.