xoxo, rosette

Thinking of you is easy - I do it every day. Missing you is the heartache, that never goes away.

I just wanna keep my eyes closed.To stray away from the nonsenses around me everyday, and every stress im pressurized with.

I slept very early this past few nights.I think at around 9 plus.I was so tired and shag that I do not have anymore energy to even think of anything.Here I go,tucked myself under my blanket and my eyes closed til the next morning.

My mid-year is coming very soon.Followed by my prelim and then,the big one, N level.Going through so many tests and trials every week.Of course I will be really jaded...

Today I have my pft.Having my 2.4km run.I was intensely exhasted.However I am able to finish my run.Lucky I borrow a digital watch from leslie or I guess I will not even bother about the run at all.So here, I passed.For the next few PE lessons Im free from everything.

How stress out.Even love couldnt do a single thing to my life.Cuz he's always away and I have limited time,so it make no difference.I am not that type of person who born to can able to express my thoughts and how I feel to people.But im learning to.Cuz I learnt from my past experiences.I cannot afford to make another mistake again.But the thing is, so what if im expressive to other?Will others repond to me in the same way?Guess I still have to keep guessing until i really understand them.Saying "i love you" is not the point to show how much you love him.or telling him "i miss you " to let him know how much heartache you have while he's not around.It is when you found out that you are actually crying for him while he's not around because you missed him a lot.Yet, he did not know anything or how much sorrows you have actually took.You will imagine and wonder what if one day you leave him or he leaves you.Because love cannot be explained.

How much I loved you?
you will never understand my heart.